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I’ve had, well, several career changes throughout my life. I waited tables in an assisted living home in high school then bartended in college. After graduating with a Bachelor’s in History, I became an insurance adjuster. Then I went back to school to become a failed hairdresser – an experience which deserves a podcast and blog of it’s own. After that I gave administrative assistanting a shot, and I nailed it. I worked at at a commercial real estate company, C got me the job. I convinced said company to let me give property appraisal a go round. Nope. Back to administrative/marketing assistanting at a different commercial real estate company. Then I snuck over to secretary work at a large publishing company which lead to a mini-promotion to assistant copy editor. The work was far too solitary so I applied to library school. I graduated to become the head librarian at one of the largest high schools in the state. Then I went and had two kids, which left me with the memory of a goldfish, so I downshifted (as they say on LinkedIn) and became a part-time children’s reference librarian at the Wellesley Free Library. Then I downshifted again and I currently work for three very demanding, very small people who have hysterical fits of rage.

Needless to say, throughout all of these career shifts, I’ve met a lot of people. One of those people was Tom Murphy. He’s a commercial real estate broker, like my husband, and we worked together for a while; well not together, but at the same company years back. He is still at that wonderful company, C is at a competing firm, and I am keeping three sociopaths alive.

Boston is small, the commercial real estate world is smaller, and Wellesley is a pin’s head. So naturally our paths crossed again now that we happen to live in the same town.

Shortly after we moved to town C ran into Tom at the Whole Foods, and then I ran into him at the dump. I was happy to see him. I liked Tom, he had always been kind and friendly and an easy smiler. I was quite young when I had worked in his office and there were a lot of men there with serious egos and wandering eyes. Tom hadn’t been one of those guys. He’s the kind of person who makes you remember that being kind matters.

The office building was connected to the Prudential Center and one of the sandwich shops in the food court gave out free, fresh baked cookies with their sandwiches. Tom passed several administrative assistant’s desks on the way back from lunch each day, including my own. And on the way to his office he would leave the cookie on one of our desks. It was such a small token, but it was sort of a “dad” gesture and it made me just adore him.


One Sunday morning in early October we went on a walk with the girls (one in a front pack on me, C pushing the other two in the double Bob). We were exploring a neighborhood and considering a move. A house had come on the market and it was located dangerously close to several of our friends. As Heidi put it, if we moved, it would be like grown-up college dorms.

As we scouted the turf we slowly fell in love with the idea of the girls walking to school with their buddies. Skirting Boulder Brook path we ran into Tom, who was on a jog with his oldest daughter, Meg. He lived one street over from the house we were interested in, and, after giving us the hard sell on the neighborhood as any good real estate broker is wont to do, he signed all three of his girls up for on-call babysitting duty.

“Now wait just a minute, you’re the Liz Sower who’s writing the ghost blog, aren’t you?” He said.

I admitted that I was that same Liz Sower. I’d recently pulled everything together well enough to pop the stories I had been collecting onto a blog and it was actually getting passed around town a bit.

“I knew it!” He declared clapping his hands together. “My wife turned me onto your stories. Are they real?”

“As far as I can tell,” I replied, bouncing a little so Kat wouldn’t wake up.

“Wait,” his daughter said. “You write those Wellesley ghost stories?”

“Yup,” I said, feeling guilty and mentally scanning to count how many times I had used the word “fuck” in my writing.

“Oh. My. Gawd!” She said, “My sisters and I got sooo freaked out about that one story with the break-in and the poltergeist! We literally won’t open the door to anyone anymore! That happened in Bates, right?” She asked, referring to the elementary school, the way all Welleslians demark neighborhood boundaries.

“It did,” I said.

“Which house was it?” She demanded.

“Oh, I couldn’t say,” I said with a laugh. “And it happened a really long time ago, you guys just keep those doors locked and you’ll be fine.”

She looked at me skeptically.

Tom said, “My wife told me I should email you, I have a ghost story! I grew up in town and we lived in a house that was haunted for a time, over in Wellesley Farms near the train stop.”

“Really?” I asked. “I would love to hear it.”

C said, “Yeah, yeah, yeah, you guys grab coffee or something. I don’t want to hear your old ghost story.”

“He’s scared,” I said with a laugh.

“He should be,” said Tom, lightly punching C in the arm.


“I miss bottles,” Tom said, gazing at Kat.

“Oh geez,” I said with a groan. “Your glasses aren’t just rose colored, they are a delusional hot pink.”

“I know, babies are exhausting, but, when they are little like that, they are just so bright and shiny.”

“I guess so,” I agreed. “I just wish I didn’t feel so sticky all the time.”

“Trust me,” he said. “You’ll miss it.”

We met up at the Starbucks on Monday morning, the day after we’d run into each other. He’d texted shortly after we’d parted ways on Sunday and suggested the time and place.

“Alright, alright, enough about the damn kid,” I said, shaking Kat’s bottle to mix her formula. “Tell me your ghost story.”

Tom smiled and began, “I grew up in a house in Wellesley Farms. I don’t know if you’re familiar with that part of town, near the train station?”

“That’s off Glen Road, right?” I said. I’d, of course, done my research beforehand. These real estate guys were obsessed with directions to and from places and “parts of town.” Trust me, I know. I’m married to one of ‘em and I have no bigger pet peeve than when someone insists upon describing the way someplace (a.k.a gives me directions). My mind doesn’t work that way and after the second, “then you take a left at the yellow house,” I am lost and feeling dumb and impatient. We have navigation in our cars and google maps on our phones. Enough already.

“Yup, that’s it,” Tom said, confirming the location. “That part of town is quite hilly, with lots of winding roads that all seem to connect. Our house was pretty close to the train station. The lot is difficult to describe, and it won’t seem to make sense, but our home was set at the top of a hill that sat at the base of a ravine. A dirt road ran along a stream that curved around the other side of the house and joined a different stream that ran behind the house. You don’t get a lot of land in town, but we had a nice spot there. There were homes around us, but when the trees filled out in the Springtime, you wouldn’t know it.”

“Wait, let me make sure I get this. A stream curved around the front and one side of the house and then met up with another stream in the backyard?” I asked.

“Yes, exactly. Part of our driveway was a little wooden bridge.” He replied.

“And the house was at the top of a hill? I seriously can’t picture this,” I said.

“I’ll text you the address so you can go see it. It is a unique spot.” He said, looking down at his phone and quickly sending me the information.

“Perfect, thanks,” I said, feeding Kat her bottle.

“I have a younger brother and we spent hours in these streams, damming them and searching for salamanders. We hardly ever went on vacation, but one summer, my parents brought us to this place called the Whiteface Lodge in the Adirondacks, ever been?” he asked.

“I grew up in Central New York, so I’ve been to Lake Placid a couple times,” I replied.

“Yes, that’s exactly where we went. We did some hiking and kayaking, the hotel even had a bowling alley.”

“How old were you guys?” I asked.

“I was probably eleven and that would have made Peter nine,” he said. “Our family stayed in this cool two-level suite in the lodge. It had that classic Adirondack look.”

I nodded my head imagining red plaid blankets, tree stump accent tables and deer heads.

“Our bedroom was on the upper floor along with a bathroom and the television sitting area. My parents room was on the first floor with the kitchen and another bedroom. My brother and I had these awesome bunk beds in our room. I got the bottom bunk and he had the top. We were in heaven, and we couldn’t stop talking about them. About how cool they were, about how they made the best fort, about how they were made of real trees. It was this totally novel concept to us,” Tom said with a laugh.

“We were on our way back to the hotel from a hike we’d taken at Cascade Mountain, I think the trail was called Owl’s Head. We drove past this little log cabin and it had a sign that said ‘Authentic Adirondack Furniture.’ My mom had my dad pull into the dirt driveway and we all go out to explore.

“There was a small barn behind the home and right when we walked in Pete and I spotted the bunk beds. We weren’t leaving there until we’d convinced our parents to buy them. I committed to mowing the lawn for two summers without pay and my brother swore to walk our dog, Bo, throughout the entire winter without complaining once.

“You know how it is on vacation,” Tom says with his crinkle-eyed smile. “You get caught up and buy things that you would never consider otherwise in your real life.”

“I bought a mumu on my honeymoon,” I said. “C was thrilled when we got home and I realized my mistake.”

“Exactly!” Tom said, laughing. “Those damn bunk beds were out of place in our house. I can see that looking back on it now. They were this massive piece of furniture in a home where my mother’s taste leaned more towards delicate antiques.

“Of course, my brother and I didn’t care. We were like pigs in shit, for a while anyway.”

I shifted Kat to burp her and asked, “And then?”

“And then it started,” Tom replied. “It was subtle at first, or, I guess I would say it was easily explained away.”

“What was?” I asked, again shifting Kat in my arms to give her the rest of her bottle.

“I am pretty sure that it started with the taps, but Peter insists that the voice came first. At any rate, I remember the taps. They started up one night, soon after we’d returned from vacation. At first, it sounded like they were coming from outside. Three taps at a time, I thought it sounded like when we were inside and our dad was outside chopping wood.

“That was my first thought the first night that we heard them, ‘What is dad doing outside chopping wood in the middle of the night?’ Peter and I were both awake and I made him get down from the top bunk and look out the window to see what was going on.”

“Mean big brother,” I said smiling.

“I’ve done my best to make up for it over the years,” Tom replied with a grin.

“Did he see anything out the window?” I asked, looking down at Kat to gauge how much of her bottle remained. She was a slow-poke.

“Nothing, zilch. Once he got out of the bed the tapping stopped. It was weird, we reasoned that it was someone outside banging a stick against a tree, which made no good sense, but we were kids.

“This kept up over several nights, but these taps, or chops seemed to get closer to the house. After a couple nights Peter refused to get down and look out the window. We were both a little scared, but I wasn’t going to let on to how frightened I actually was, so I razzed him about it. He finally told me that if I was so brave why wouldn’t I get up and just go outside to see who was making the noise. That shut me up.

“Then one night it stopped,” Tom said.

“Stopped?” I asked.

“Yes, nothing. We joked about it the next morning, said the tree-chopper – that’s what we’d nicknamed it – must have moved on. Then that night, it started up again, only this time, it was coming from the attic.”

“Uh uh,” I said, taking the empty bottle from Kat and putting her up on my shoulder to burp her again.

“Exactly,” Tom affirms. “We woke up in the middle of the night to this tapping. One, two three. One, two, three,” he counts out as he taps his fingertips on the table between us. “We told our parents and they thought it was squirrels in the attic. They didn’t believe our story of the tapping coming closer to the house, they thought we were fooling around,” he said.

“I don’t think I would believe it either,” I replied. “I would have thought you were either messing with each other or me.”

“Exactly,” Tom said. He watched me for a minute then asked, “Can I hold her?”

I looked down at Kat who was snuggled into my arms with her binkie and lovie blanket, “You are too much, Tom,” I said as I stood and placed her in his arms. I tucked the lovie between his chest and her cheek. Kat’s an ‘any port in the storm’ type of gal, so she was happy as could be.

“Did your parents set traps, or call an exterminator?” I asked as I sat back down in my chair.

Tom swayed back and forth slightly with the baby and replied, “They’ were do it yourself-ers and my dad set some humane traps for the supposed squirrels and laid out a couple wooden mice traps in case we were exaggerating about all the noise.

“That first night around two a.m. we heard all of the mice traps go off at once, right over our heads.”

“Any mice?” I asked, picturing a little Tom and a littler Peter tucked into bed, wide eyed and terrified in the middle of the night.

“No mice, and the cheese was still on the traps when my dad checked them in the morning,” Tom explained. “He took it as a challenge and put peanut butter on the traps the next night, but all it made was make a mess, melting off the traps in the hot attic.”

“What about the taps?” I asked, sipping my coffee and stretching in my chair. Enjoying the break from holding Kat.

“We heard the traps all go off again that second night, this time even the squirrel traps slammed shut, same time, two a.m. After that, the taps stopped for good, but the tremors started,” he said, continuing to sway in his seat with the baby. “The bed would, not shake, but tremor slightly. Pete called it ‘the shivers.’”

“Geez,” I said, leaning forward.

“The tremors stayed with us until the bed left the house. You know what reminds me of it? When I feel my cell phone buzz in my pocket if I have the ringer off. That quick three bursts of buzz, buzz, buzz. I hate having my phone on vibrate.”

“Did you say anything to your parents?” I asked.

“Oh sure, I even said that I thought something might be wrong with our bunk beds and, like any good set of parents, they got really angry. Dad went off on a rant about how we were ungrateful and needed to start recognizing all of our blessings and be more thankful for the things that he and my mom provided.”

“Sounds familiar,” I said. “I think I just gave that same rant yesterday.”

“Me too,” Tom said with a laugh. “Those tremors were with us until we finally got rid of the bunk bed. We actually got used to them. As we fell asleep they were soft, but towards the middle of the night they came closer together, I think to wake us up.

“The taps and the tremors were disturbing, but then I woke up one night to whispering. I thought at first that it was Peter calling to me from the top bunk so I called back to him, but he didn’t answer. I said his name a bit louder and still he didn’t answer, so I peeked up over the edge of the bed. He wasn’t there.

“I sat back on my bed for a moment trying to decide what to do. I knew that he would never get up in the middle of the night without me. As I sat there trying to decide whether I should go to my parent’s room I heard the whispering again. I realized that it was coming from the closet on the other side of the room.

“I listened for a few moments and could discern two voices, speaking very quietly. Then I heard one of them laugh and realized that it was my brother. I flipped the lamp on beside the bed and crawled out to walk to the closet.

“I put my hand on the handle and paused. The voices had stopped. It took all the guts I had in my eleven year old body to open that door, but I did it, and there was Pete. He had his back to me and had pushed some of our clothes to the sides of the closet so that he had a little space to stand. He was just staring at the back of the closet. He didn’t even flinch when I opened the door. I was scared stiff and I didn’t even want to speak, but I yelled at him, ‘Pete, what the heck? Pete!’ and then I grabbed his shoulder and spun him around.

“It took him a second or two to come around. Then he was scared. I asked him what the heck he had been doing in the closet and who he had been talking to. He said that he didn’t know, that he couldn’t remember. But I just sort of knew that he wasn’t completely telling the truth.

“I called him a weirdo and told him to cut it out and get back in bed. We both crawled into our beds and I shut the light off but I didn’t sleep the rest of the night.”

“For heaven’s sake, if I ever hear whispering in my closet I’m leaving a trail of lighter fluid in my wake and throwing a match of my shoulder as I run out of the door screaming,” I said.

“Yeah, I think I would do the same thing today,” Tom said with a shrug. “But we were kids. At that point, part of me was still thinking that this was some sort of adventure. Like a mystery for Pete and me to solve. It was summer and we were bored with playing at the creek and this gave us a bit of a thrill.

“It was when Pete started acting strangely that I become concerned.”

“Strangely?” I asked. “I’d call talking to someone in the closet in the middle of the night pretty strange.”

“Exactly,” Tom said. “But that was just the beginning. I found him like that in the closet a couple more times before I finally got up the nerve to go to my parents room and wake them up before opening the door to the closet. I could tell that it frightened our mother, but my dad was determined to blame it on sleep walking.

“Pete started talking to himself during the day,” Tom continued. “ We would be out at the creek building a dam or hunting for salamanders and I’d wander away from him only to return and find him sitting there whispering, shaking his head or motioning his hands like he was having a full conversation. I tried to kid him about it, tell him he must be losing it, but he wouldn’t joke with me about it. He’d always been a happy kid, always looking for a laugh and then that just changed.

“He even started to look different. There were dark circles under his eyes and he sort of scrunched his eyebrows all the time. He got really grumpy with me. I tried to tell my mom but she blamed it on his sleepwalking just like my dad. She said Peter was overtired and that I needed to be patient with him.

“One night I woke up and my dad was walking Pete back into our bedroom and helping him back into bed. I asked what was going on and he said Pete had been sleepwalking again and he found him in the backyard banging a stick against a tree. He said it with more choice words, something like, “Your jackass brother was in the backyard banging the hell out of tree with a damn stick.’”

“Oh no,” I said.

“That was the first time that I truly felt afraid. And then, after that night, I’ll tell you what, Pete got mean.”

“How so?” I asked.

“Well, it was little things that only I noticed. He acted fine around my parents, but when we were at the creek he’d look for crayfish and put them in with our little bucket of salamanders and watch them fight. I’d dump the bucket out whenever I saw him doing it. It gave me the creeps. It was other stuff, too.  We were riding bikes one time and he sped up and aimed to hit a cat.  He didn’t hit it, but it wasn’t for lack of trying. He threw rocks at some bunnies in our yard, stuff like that.

“Then this one time, in our kitchen he was getting something to eat and our dog – we had this old deaf golden retriever – and Pete kicked him out of his way on the way to the refrigerator. I got so mad at him and I shoved him and said he’d better not ever do that again. Then he just came at me swinging. My mom had to pry us apart, we were rolling around on the kitchen floor going at each other.

“I got in so much trouble for that. She wouldn’t listen to me, only heard Pete say that I had shoved him first. That night, when he got home from work, my dad gave me a long lecture about how I should be looking out for my brother. He didn’t understand that I was looking out for Petey, my parents were the ones ignoring what was happening to him.

“Geez, Tom. You were so young, that’s a lot to take on,” I said, sympathetically.

“What are you gonna do?” Tom said, shrugging his shoulders. “It was a different time, us kids were to stay out of our mom’s hair during the day. Entertain ourselves, look out for each other. It’s so different today, but I can understand how my parents saw things back then. They probably figured that we were just getting on each other’s nerves from spending so much time together.”

“What changed their minds?” I asked.

Tom paused and took a breath, then said, “One night Pete woke me up saying, ‘Cut it out, Tommy’ I didn’t know what he was talking about and denied doing anything. He insisted that I had been kicking the bottom off his mattress with my feet and lifting him up. I had been sound asleep, I hadn’t done any such thing. As we were arguing back and forth about it, I felt something kick under my mattress and lift me up a little bit.”

“Holy hell,” I said.

“Yeah,” Tom said nodding his head. “I scrambled up the ladder to Pete’s bunk before I even knew what I was doing. We sat there, scared to death. It was the first connection I had really made with Pete in a couple weeks. I asked him, ‘What is it?’ and he just said, ‘It’s him. He needs something.’ But Pete wouldn’t tell me who ‘he’ was or what he wanted. The more I pushed for an answer the quieter he got and then he finally got angry and told me to get the heck out of his bed and to stop being such a baby.

“After that night Pete began carrying around this little red-handled paint scraper. You know the kind?” Tom asked. ”It’s metal, about six inches long with a flat metal surface at the top for scraping paint. The handle was covered in red rubber. My dad had it because he had scraped and repainted the deck that previous Spring.

“Pete became attached to the thing. If we were playing or hanging out he’d carry it in his jeans, the red handle sticking out above the top of his back pocket. One afternoon he was sharpening the thing in the garage against this sharpening stone that my dad used for his firewood axe. I asked him what the heck he was doing and Pete just ignored me, so I yelled at him, ‘Earth to Pete?’ and he looked up at me, but it wasn’t Pete looking at me. He looked older, and so filled with hatred. I backed out of the garage and he smiled and said, ‘He needs something.’”

“Come on,” I said. “What did you do?”

“Really, nothing. I avoided him after that. I knew my parents weren’t going to be any help, so I tried to stay away from him. The problem was, he wouldn’t leave me alone. I’d be at the creek and turn around and there he’d be, with that paint scraper in his hand, just standing there, staring at me. Or I’d ride my bike to the pond and he would be there. Sitting in the sand, watching me.

“The worst was a few times I pulled my covers back to see the paint scraper lying there on my pillow and Pete would reach past me to grab it before climbing up to his bunk.”

“I can’t believe your parents didn’t see this change in him,” I said.

“I think my mom saw more than she was letting on, thank God,” Tom replied. “Things came to a head one night. I was dozing off when I heard the bed creak above me. I could see Pete’s imprint on the mattress, and there was another imprint. Like someone was sitting at the end of his bed. I called up to him and he didn’t answer. Then he just slowly climbed down the ladder and stood next to my bed staring at me.

“I sat up and told him to cut it out and go back to bed, then I noticed the paint scraper. ‘I know what he needs,’ Pete said in a whisper. I told him to shut up, to leave me alone or I was going to go get our dad. I began to get out of the bed and he launched himself at me.

“He came at me with that damn paint scraper. He was trying to cut me, but I somehow managed to grab both of his arms with mine and stop him. He was doing his damndest to hurt me, and his face, Liz, it wasn’t my brother. I don’t know what came over me, but I started screaming, ‘Get out of my brother! Leave my brother alone! You can’t stay here!’ And I was calling to Pete, screaming his name, telling him to fight whatever it was off, I got through to him once and saw his eyes change a little, like he recognized me and I screamed, ‘Jesus won’t let you take my brother! Jesus won’t let you take Pete!’”

“Where were your parents?” I demanded.

“Oh, they came in and they saw what was happening right after I had yelled for Jesus to help Pete. I can still see them clear as day standing there in our doorway, frightened and confused. Then my dad pulled Pete off me and I just kept yelling for Jesus to help Pete. My mom sat down on the bed next to me and tried to calm me down. Pete was struggling with my dad, and then my mom jumped up and said, ‘Robert, the bed, it’s shaking,’ my dad looked at her and my mom looked between Pete and me and went straight to Pete and put her hand on his forehead and said ‘Demon, in Jesus name you leave my son. May all of God’s angels drag you back to hell. In Jesus name I demand that you leave Peter!’”

“Tom -” I began.

He held a hand out to stop me, “I know that this sounds like a tall tale. But, Liz, it happened. I think that when my mom felt the bed shake for herself and heard me calling out to help Pete, she believed. And you know what? I hadn’t even realized the bed was doing that tremor thing. I was so worked up.”

“What about Pete?” I asked. “What happened?”

“He came around. Slowly. It wasn’t like he all of a sudden snapped out of it, it was more like he stopped struggling with my dad and then he was very quiet and just staring at all of us like he didn’t know how we all got there. My mom went and got her Rosary beads and put them around his neck and then Pete started crying and saying, ‘Mommy’ over and over.”

“How did your dad react?”

“He never said anything about it. We all went downstairs and my mom actually made us hot chocolate and, even though Pete was still in a daze, he was definitely Pete again. The next morning my dad stayed home from work and took apart the bunk beds. I heard my mom tell him to ‘get those cursed beds out of her house,’ and he did. He dismantled them and dragged them out and didn’t tell us what he did with them.

“Sorry,” Tom apologized. “I know that it’s a real anticlimactic ending, but the rest of the summer was fine. Everything went back to normal. Pete was Pete again. I tried asking him about everything, but he said he couldn’t remember much. Just that he had felt really mad all the time.”

“We’ve talked about it a few times over the years, but I hadn’t thought too much about it until my mom passed away recently,” he said.

“I am so sorry to hear that, Tom,” I said.

“Thanks, we miss her a lot. Dad died about five years ago, so Pete and I need to sell the house. We cleaned out the basement and then tackled my parent’s storage unit in Framingham. It was mostly a hoard of dusty old antiques, ratty rugs and broken lamps,” Tom explained looking down at Kat who was sound asleep in his arms. “At any rate, we dug through to the back of the storage unit and there they were. The bunk beds.”

“Uh uh,” I said.

“Yup, looking just like the day we first spotted them at the barn,” he replied shaking his head.

“What did you do with them?” I asked.

“Well, that’s just it, isn’t it?” He said shrugging his shoulders. “I don’t know what to do with them. We’ve cancelled the storage unit, I couldn’t ask Pete to take them, and I can’t very well drop them off the dump swap and have some poor family take them home.”

“So where are they now?” I asked nervously.

“In my basement,” he said.

“Tom, no!” I replied.

“My wife is furious. When I came home with those things in the back of the pick up she damn near lost her mind.”

“So she’s knows the whole story?” I asked.

“Almost, she knows everything but the part about Pete trying to kill me.”

“You’ve got to get rid of them,” I said.

“How? He asked. “I can’t make a bonfire in our backyard, I can’t sell them, can’t donate them,” he trailed off.

“What about a wood chipper?” I asked. “Rent a wood chipper and chop them down to nothing. Then dump the wood chips in a lake somewhere. Wait, duh,” I said, reconsidering. “Take them out on a boat and just throw them overboard. Tie a nice cement block to each piece.”

“Hmm,” he said, looking off into the distance. “Pete has a boat, we could go out from the Cape, I guess.”

“Tomorrow,” I insisted.

“See, I knew you’d have an idea,” Tom said smiling. He stood up to hand Kat back to me. She stirred a bit but settled back down into my arms.

Tom grabbed our coffees off the table to throw the empty cups away. I put Kat’s bottle in the stroller then glanced up at Tom’s back as he walked to the garbage can. I notice something sticking out over the back pocket of his jeans. It was a red handle.

It took me a moment, and then I knew without a doubt what it was. I quickly looked away and felt goosebumps cover my body. Tom was back at the table before I could react.

He sat back down and asked, “What do you ladies have on tap for the rest of the day?”

“The usual,” I said, keeping my voice steady. “But, um, C is actually coming home early. Should be there by the time we get back,” I lied.

“That’s nice, what’s the occasion?” He asked.

“He’s just trying to give me a break, you know how it is with little ones,” I explained. “Speaking of, I should go grab the other two rug rats and get home.”

“You’re pulling them from school early?” He asked, his brow furrowed.

“Uh, yes, we’ll grab lunch then C will take them all to the park or something.”

“Dad of the year,” Tom said with his crinkle-eyed smile.

I agreed and quickly gathered my things, and stood, “Tom, thanks for your ghost story, it was truly frightening.”

“Will it make the blog?” He asked putting his hand out to shake.

I tried to hide my hesitation, but shook his hand and said, “Oh, most definitely.”

I quickly popped Kat into her car seat and wheeled her away, feeling Tom’s eyes on my back as I walked to the exit. I got us both into the car and called C, “I think Tom Murphy is going to hurt someone, if he hasn’t already. I’m going to the police station. You need to come home.”

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If You Go Out in the Woods Today… (MOPO)

Morses Pond didn’t start out as the sizeable body of water it is today. Back in 1738, a landowner dammed a brook to create a mill-pond. Subsequent owners liked this idea, each one outdoing the last in building up the dam until the small spit of water eventually grew into the Morses Pond we know today.***

I don’t like ponds. Never have. Even as a little kid, they skeeved me out. The muddy suction, pulling at my feet as I entered. The murky water, whispering of a million animal poops. The slightly rank smell, hinting at the decomposition of dead bodies waiting to be discovered just beneath the surface.

Don’t get me wrong, I spent a massive amount of time on ponds and small lakes as a child. I grew up in Central New York, and you can’t throw a snowball without hitting a body of water up there. I went tubing and boating and sunset cruising, though never water skiing. I went to a summer camp where we tipped canoes in a pond so choked by weeds, they slithered along our legs as we tread water. Our counselors told a story of the Frog Man, a World War II vet who somehow invoked Native American spirits and, well, turned into a Frog Man. Even at the time it didn’t make much sense, but it was scary nonetheless and we couldn’t help but wonder if those really were just weeds slithering along our legs.

It was all great summer fun, and in my youth I was much better at pushing past gross shit that made me uncomfortable so I could have fun doing the things that I enjoyed. As opposed to now, when I have to really dig deep to appear as though it’s no big deal when my kids are covered in mud, or shit, or boogers. I watched my oldest daughter lick the side of my car this winter. She licked the side of my car. Really. It was all I could do to not just wish her well and abandon her there in the parking lot.

Anyhow, back to ponds… Before we moved to town I read A Murder in Wellesley, by Tom Farmer and Marty Foley. It is a true crime tale about May Greineder, a Welleslian who, on Halloween morning in 1999, was savagely murdered by her husband on the walking trails around Morses Pond. It is a sad story, but a fascinating crime. It made me curious about these trails and the pond they encircle. So I did some exploring.

Walking along Morses Pond you can’t go too far without running into someone and their dog or circling back to where you started. The trails are sandy and surrounded by pine forest, and they remind me of a bike trail my family used to ride along on Cape Cod.

There was this one thing that I read about the pond that just bothered me. The average depth of the pond is eight feet. That’s it. Eight feet. There is something so, well, murky about eight feet. It gives me the shivers. It reminded me of the Frog Man, and my childhood memory of swimming among the weeds suddenly struck me as less “summer fun” and more “where the fuck were the adults?”

You don’t have to look far to find stories of people getting tangled in weeds and drowning. Morses Pond is on its way to becoming wetland. Experts call this kind of pond eutrophic. In other words, it doesn’t have enough life within it to process the amount of nutrients it contains. Think algae blooms and thriving weeds and stench.

I am a crazy person near the water as it is. You know Chief Brody from Jaws? Picture him running up and down the beach, screaming “Get out of the water! Get out of the water! Shark!” after he sees a school of fish and mistakes it for a vengeful sea monster.

That’s me.

Why this little discourse on Morses Pond? Well, I met three women who convinced me that, not only would my girls never step foot into that pond, they wouldn’t be walking its surrounding trails anytime soon either.


Hillary, Jill and Vanessa were classmates with Jenn (of the home invasion producing poltergeist). They were freshman when she was a senior in high school and ran in some of the same Wellesley power circles. They belonged to what I found to be the most fascinating social group in town.

See that tiny blond woman driving the silver Range Rover with two car seats in the back and a ACK sticker on the bumper? That bitch is gettin’ shit done. Don’t mistake her for some trophy wife. She’ll have her fourth baby soon enough (number of children is becoming a status symbol here), but in the meantime, she is managing a massive home renovation, shuttling three children to three different schools (two to private, one to public), crushing her third year in the Juniors (Wellesley’s own brand of the Junior League) and doing some home design consulting on the side. She’s balls-to-the-wall Paleo and takes the same spin class as Giselle and Tom.

Wellesley was chock full of these women and they cocktailed and wealthy-benefactored together. Jenn emailed me and said some friends of hers wanted to have me over for drinks. Her email subtly warned me that they were in the Range Rover crew.

It was late September, I’d had my baby back in July, she came early just like her sisters. I am not the best at being pregnant, can never seem to make it through to the home stretch, but she was a toughy and did just fine. I did have to give up my part-time job at the library, though. I just couldn’t muster up the ability to be reliable anymore; one of the girls was always sick or refusing to sleep through the night.

For obvious reasons I’d taken time off from collecting ghost stories. I was exhausted and vacillating between, “what the fuck were we thinking having another baby?” and “it’s got to get easier at some point.” This third baby was not a status symbol baby, more a “happy oops/I missed my IUD appointment” baby.

So when I read Jenn’s email I jumped on it immediately. I was desperate to be around adults. And drink wine. I told her to send me their contact information and I’d reach out.

About an hour later I received an email from Paperless Post titled Ghostly Get Together. I clicked on the envelope, which virtually opened to a tasteful navy blue trellised note card.

It read, “Join us for a haunted tale. Thursday, September 27th, 7:00pm. Cocktails and a Scare.” I clicked to RSVP and saw that besides the host, Hillary Stone, there would be only two other guests in attendance, Jill Fairchild and Vanessa Cheney [note: all names have been changed to protect individuals’ identities].

What the hell was I going to wear?


I made my own little power move and Ubered to Hillary’s house. C was home with the kids. He assured me that he would stay a little later the next morning to get the two older girls to school.

“Take a break, have fun,” he said. Though, I know he meant, “It seems like you might be about to lose it for good this time. Please don’t leave me.”

I was determined to enjoy myself, drink an extra glass of wine, and sleep in the next morning. My friend Heidi helped me to pick out an outfit. I was feeling puffy and holding on to the pregnancy weight, but I did feel kind of cool in my jeans, navy blue blazer, light blue gingham shirt (popped collar over popped collar) and chunky coral necklace. My friend Kristine let me borrow her Chloe bag, the necklace was from Leigh, and Lyssa came over to beach wave my hair. Laura and Carrie still had small babies at home so they texted encouragement and asked for pictures. It takes a village.

The Uber pulled up in front of a sprawling colonial-style home.

“Wish me luck,” I said to the driver.

“You’re killin’ it,” he replied. “Don’t let ‘em see you sweat.”

I climbed the stone steps in my flats and realized that I was probably going to have to take my shoes off once inside. I hadn’t had a pedicure in months. Didn’t know when I had last trimmed my toenails.

I shot off a quick, panicked message to my friends in a text chain title “Squad.”

PEDICURE!!! F!!!

Own it. Heidi texted back immediately.

You’re cooler than they are. Lyssa texted shortly after.

I texted them the devil face emoji, then continued up the stone steps. The house was white with black shutters and a black door. Landscaped to the hilt, I wondered if anyone had ever walked on the grass, or if Hillary’s hands had planted those mums.

As I lifted my hand to ring the doorbell the door swung open and a trinity of Wellesley power mommies looked out at me expectantly.

“Liz?” The one with flowing auburn hair demanded.

“Yes,” I said, “Hillary?”

“Hi! Come in!” She replied.

The three women stepped aside and Hillary introduced me to Jill Fairchild (flowing blond hair) and Vanessa Cheney (flowing brunette hair). I was given the head-to-toe once over and I’m not sure if I passed, but Vanessa said, “Love your necklace.”

I reached up to touch it and said, “Thanks,” stopping myself from telling them that I’d borrowed it from a friend.

“Great bag,” Jill said, smiling. I was beginning to feel like a fraud.

“Come on,” Hillary said, “No, no, leave your shoes on. They look cute.”

I followed the trio down the hall and through french doors into a dining room. At it’s center sat a circular white lacquered dining table beneath a massive crystal chandelier. Upon the table was a coral colored tray with cheese, crackers and grapes. Windows filled an entire wall and provided a view of darkening woods. Where there weren’t windows, there was wallpaper. Life sized navy blue palm leaves created a preppy floor to ceiling forest. Hillary walked to a golden bar cart bar and asked over her shoulder if I liked Chardonnay.

“Love it,” I said.

“What’s your favorite?” she asked.

“Oh, whatever is open is fine,” I replied.

“No, really, what is your favorite?” She asked again.

“Well, I guess it’s Rombauer,” I said, feeling uncomfortable.

“You’re in luck,” she said, reaching for a bottle. “I’ve got some 2014.”

Jill and Vanessa sat down and snacked on cheese and crackers. Hillary motioned for me to sit and brought over a very full glass of my very favorite wine.

As I sipped and chatted about kids, elementary schools and a recent adultery scandal between a couple of their neighbors, I studied the three of them. They wore slightly different versions of the same outfit. Tight skinny jeans, black flowy tops, diamond studs, and big watches. Gold for Hillary, silver for Vanessa, and a combination of the two for Jill. Hillary was the obvious queen, and it was immediately apparent that Jill and Vanessa were ever-vying for the number two position.

I sent up a quick prayer, thanking God for my kind, funny, wonderful friends.

After discussing the looming elementary school redistricting – and by discussing, I mean nodding my head and making non-committal semi-affirming noises to their outraged statements – Hillary stood and opened a new bottle. Jill and Vanessa quieted down, as if on cue, as our hostess refilled our wine glasses.

“So, Liz, we have a ghost story for you,” Hillary said, topping off my Chardonnay.

“Fantastic,” I replied. “Do you guys mind me recording our conversation?”

“Not at all, but we’ll need you to agree to change our names for your piece, and swear that you will not divulge our identities to anyone,” Vanessa said, in resting bitch face.

“Sure,” I replied, switching on my digital recorder and placing it on the table’s gleaming surface.

“Great, then we can get started,” Hillary said brightly.

Jill stared at the recorder and Vanessa sat back in her chair to sip her wine.

“We’ve been friends for a really long time. We were neighbors as kids, on the other side of town in Wellesley Hills. We were together all the time,” Hillary began.

“Inseparable,” Jill chimed in.

Hillary nodded her head and continued, “And we just grew closer as we grew older. We had another friend -”

“Claire,” said Vanessa, leaning forward in her seat. I stopped myself from asking what color hair she had.

Hillary went on, “It was always the four of us, we nicknamed ourselves the Tetrad.”

“It means ‘four,’” Jill explained. I smiled at her.

“Anyway,” Hillary said, her voice hinting annoyance at the interruptions, “All throughout elementary and middle school everyone knew that we just, like, came as a group. Then in high school, we started dating these guys who were also really close. We hung out with them constantly, all together. My husband, Philip, lived on MOPO -”

“Wait, two questions,” I said, holding up my hand. “What is ‘MOPO’ and you married your high school sweetheart?”

Morses Pond and yes, we all did,” Hillary replied.

“You guys all married your high school sweethearts?” I asked, with a nervous laugh. The three exchanged a look then said “yes” in unison.

I patted my blazer pocket, almost absently, making sure that my phone was in reach. The vibe had just shifted from bitchy women talking about their glory days, to Stepford Wives ready to indoctrinate me.

The women were looking at me expectantly, so I said, “That is just about the sweetest thing.”

They exchanged another look and Vanessa began to explain, “We all went through a lot together, and -”

“Let’s not get ahead of ourselves,” Hillary interrupted her. Vanessa sat back in her seat and continued drinking. Jill’s eyes darted between them. Hillary continued, “As I was saying, my husband lived on MOPO. His home had this gorgeous lawn that lead down to the water and a boathouse with a dock. The summer after our sophomore year we spent everyday, sun up to sundown, on the water, tooling around in one of the boats or laying out at the beach across the pond.”

“Or making out in the trails in the woods,” Jill said with a smile.

“Frank and I still do that sometimes,” Vanessa said with a grin.

The other women laughed and I joined in half-heartedly. Hillary went on, “Yeah, it was an amazing summer, the best of my life, really. But then,” she paused.

“Claire,” Jill said, sadly.

“Claire,” Hillary agreed. “It was a Thursday and we’d spent the afternoon at the beach. Frank, Vanessa’s husband, had snuck some beers out of his parent’s basement and the plan was to hang on the beach for a while and then hike back into the woods to drink.

“Around five o’clock the eight of us walked back through the trails up to the pine forest and drank. We each probably had, I don’t know, maybe three, four beers and the time got away from us. I think Jill realized what time it was and we were due home in, like, half an hour. It was a little before eight o’clock and the sun was going down. So we rushed through the trails back to the boat. We had tied it to this little rinky-dink dock at the beach.

“We were panicked about getting home on time and we all hopped in. I know we all got into the boat, we all saw each other for sure. John and Jill, Vanessa and Frank, Claire and Chris, and me and Philip.

“We were drunk,” Jill says, quietly.

“No that drunk,” Vanessa sort of snaps.

“There was no doubt that it was,” Hillary pauses, choosing her words carefully, “irresponsible to get into that boat and let Philip drive. But we were young and stupid. He floored it, a little too hard, and drove us back to the house. We were off the boat and all the way back to the car before we realized that Claire wasn’t with us.”

No,” I said, almost in a whisper. I hadn’t even meant to speak.

“She must have fallen out when Philip gunned the boat away from the dock,” Hillary replied.

“They said she probably hit her head on the dock and drowned,” Vanessa said.

“We didn’t know she wasn’t with us. We were so afraid of missing curfew, we just didn’t know,” Jill says.

“Did you go back out to look for her?” I asked, afraid of the answer.

“Chris and Philip did,” Hillary replied. “We decided to go into Philip’s house and use his phone to call our parents and let them know we would be late. We knew that if we didn’t all go home together we’d be in even more trouble than if we missed curfew.”

“My mom could tell something was wrong on the phone and she ended up driving over to Philip’s house,” said Jill.

“We waited at the edge of the lake, watching the boat head towards the beach, then motor along the coastline. Finally it returned, but still, no Claire,” Hillary explained.

“We were hoping that she had fallen out, gotten out of the water and walked along the trail back to Philip’s,” Vanessa said.

“We prayed that was what happened,” Jill said.

“Did you search the trail?” I asked.

“Yes, the boys grabbed flashlights from Philip’s house and walked the trails. We stayed behind hoping that Claire would appear from the woods. Philip’s parents weren’t home, but Jill’s mom showed up. When we explained what happened she immediately called the police and then all of our parents,” said Hillary.

“I think my mom got there next,” said Vanessa.

“Yes, and then mine,” confirms Hillary. “She arrived right along with the police. There was a massive search, through the woods and the pond, but there just wasn’t enough light.”

“They brought in divers the next morning. She was found in shallow water, not too far from the dock,” Vanessa reports.

The three women stare at me. I was the only one blinking back tears. Since having my own kids, stories of young people dying hit me hard. And this was such a cliché. Couldn’t this have been any of us in our teenage years? How the fuck did any of us make it to adulthood? How the fuck was I going to make sure my girls would be strong enough to choose not to get into the boat with the drunk boyfriend and instead deal with the consequences of missing curfew? I know that I hadn’t been strong enough for that at fifteen.

“We’ve upset you,” Hillary states. “I apologize, it truly was a nightmare. The questions by the police, the conspiracy theories at school in the fall, the shock of it all.”

“The death of one of your best friends,” I added.

“Of course,” she said, glancing between Jill and Vanessa who were expressionless.

“That must have been horrible for all of you,” I said, sensing that maybe it hadn’t been all that bad.

“Oh it was,” Jill said, leaning forward in her seat. “It was so sad, and then poor Chris.”

“He killed himself at the lake,” Vanessa explained. “The following winter. Drank some vodka, took a bunch of pills and then jumped in. They didn’t find his body until the pond thawed in the Spring.”

“Jesus, Mary and Joseph,” I said, almost crossing myself.

Vanessa stands and grabs the wine bottle, drains it into her glass and opens another one. As she tops off everyone else’s glass Hillary and Jill fill me in on how distraught Chris had been after Claire’s death.

“He just couldn’t get over it,” Hillary says shaking her head in bewilderment. “It was a terrible thing, but it was an accident. None of us had anything to do with it. It’s not like we were responsible.”

What a chillingly affirmative mantra, I thought.

This well-choreographed story was missing something, quite possibly the truth. “The lady doth protest too much, methinks,” flitted through my mind.

“I’ve never heard or read anything about this drowning,” I said.

“You wouldn’t have,” said Vanessa. “Claire’s parents are lawyers. They worked for the DA then, and it was a different time. It was 1990. The O.J. trial hadn’t happened yet, things could be kept respectfully quiet.”

I refrained from pointing out that O.J.’s had been a murder trial, this, the apparent drowning of a girl in a local pond. One would assume the community would rally around in support, and, if nothing else, use it as a cautionary tale for the town’s youth.

“Well,” I said, taking a breath. “I am just so sorry. I grew up around lakes and I know how fast drownings happen even under the seemingly safest of circumstances.”

“Yeah, it was a tragedy,” Hillary replied. “The three of us felt really guilty about it.”

“I couldn’t sleep,” Jill said.

“We didn’t know how to process it,” said Vanessa.

“I went to New York City for a couple of weeks the following summer, to visit my cousins,” said Hillary. “We were shopping in Brooklyn this one afternoon and popped into a little occult store. My cousins were checking out the crystals and I came upon this book. It was titled, Summoning Lost Loved Ones. I paged through it and it was filled with spells for communicating with the dead, even one you could use to summon a spirit.

“I bought it and read it cover to cover on the train ride home,” Hillary said, grabbing a cracker off the platter in the center of the table.

“We read it too,” Jill said excitedly. “It was almost like it was written for us, like Hill was supposed to find it there.”

“Most of the spells required three people, there was one that laid out how to summon the spirit of a loved one,” Hillary added.

“It was an invocation of spirit,” Vanessa corrected. “Directions on how to conjure a ghost.”

“Tell me you didn’t -” I began.

“It was all in fun. I mean, not fun. We missed our friend and we felt badly about the way she had died, about the accident, I mean, and this was a way for us to talk to her again, to make peace with her,” Jill jumped in.

I just shook my head and asked, “How’d that turn out for you?”

The three women leaned forward. I fought the urge to push my chair back.

“It took some time to gather everything we needed,” Vanessa began. “There was some memorizing to do, and some, um, supplies to gather. But we were a bit pressed for time. Claire had died on July nineteenth the previous summer. We had to have everything ready for the anniversary of her death.

“We chose a spot near the pond, we needed a place with earth, air, fire, and water. There’s this secluded place, off the trail that sort of dips down into a gully. The wind whips through it and it’s low enough so that water gathers there; not much, but enough. There was plenty of earth and we could build a fire.”

“We all told our parents that we were sleeping at eachother’s houses,” Jill said.

“Luckily none of them bothered to check up on us,” Vanessa said.

“We parked near Philip’s house and lugged our gear to the ground we’d chosen. It was so hot,” Hillary said.

“And buggy,” said Jill.

“But we got everything setup just right,” Hillary continued. “We each had our own part memorized and recited it around the fire. Nessa had this brush that all four of us had used when we would do each other’s hair, so we had pulled the hair out from its bristles and braided it together, it went into the fire along with a picture of Claire.”

“At first it didn’t feel like anything was going to happen,” Vanessa said.

“Then there was this, like, whoosh, like the wind was coming up from the ground all around us and the fire got really bright and then, we could feel her there,” continues Hillary.

“It smelled like her,” Jill said with wide eyes. “She used to wear vanilla extract as perfume, and the forest smelled like vanilla!”

“Uh uh,” I said, silently vowing to always, without exception, call to check in when my daughters said they were sleeping over at a friend’s house.

“Yes, and that wasn’t it,” Hillary said. “It was this feeling, like she was right there with us. It was incredible. And somehow we just knew that she forgave us.”

“For the accident?” I asked.

“Yes,” Jill said quickly. “We wanted her to know that we wished we had seen her fall and that we were sorry we weren’t able to help her.”

“Ok, then what?” I asked, having no idea where this was going.

“Well, then we had this idea that she could maybe help us, from the other side,” Hillary said.

“What gave you that idea?” I asked, genuinely confused.

“The book,” said Vanessa. “There was a spell that could harness a spirit’s power. We knew it was a long shot, but conjuring a ghost was a long shot, so if we were able to manage to do that we figured we would give this a try too. We recited the spell to harness phantasmal force.”

“You’ve got to be kidding me,” I said.

“It was worth a try,” said Hillary with a shrug. “It worked.”

“How?” I asked.

“Well, the vibe definitely changed. The wind stopped, the fire dimmed, and it got really quiet,” said Jill. “So we put forward our intentions.”

“The things we desired,” clarified Hillary.

“Like what?” I asked.

“We wanted to marry our boyfriends, and we each said how many kids we wanted to have,” said Vanessa.

“And we always wanted to live close to one another,” added Jill.

“And we wanted Claire near us, we wanted her to stay,” finished Hillary.

“And?” I asked.

“We live on the same street,” said Hillary. “We’ve married our high school sweethearts.”

“Number of kids?” I asked.

“I’ve had eight miscarriages trying for a second baby,” says Vanessa in an icy tone. “I never thought I would want more than one kid. So, I only asked for one that night.”

I did not know how to respond to that, so I just said, “I’m sorry.”

Vanessa waved this off with a motion of her hand, “The point is, the spell worked.”

“For better or worse,” I said.

“Yes,” they said in unison.

“And Claire?” I asked needing a sip of wine but not want them to see my hands shaking.

“She’s been with us since that night,” said Hillary. “That night we asked her to give us each a sign of her presence. Nothing happened in the woods, but we each had experiences, later on,” then she stood up. More wine. If I drank anymore I would risk blacking out, so I declined when she offered to fill my glass again and watched as the three other glasses at the table were filled to the brim.

“She came to me first,” said Jill. “A few nights later I was up late reading on our couch. I was the last to bed so I was flipping off all of the lights downstairs. We had this big window that looked out over our front yard. I turned the foyer light out and glanced out that window, our lamp post was on and I thought I saw someone walk past it.

“I went to the window and saw her. Claire. She was there, in the clothes she had worn the day that,” pause. “That she died. She was looking in at me and I couldn’t look away. Part of me wanted to open the door and run to her and the other knew that I shouldn’t do that. I was completely stunned. I couldn’t move. I don’t know how long, maybe a minute or so we just stared at each other and then she turned and walked out of the lamp light. I couldn’t see her anymore.”

“Holy shit,” I said, again suppressing the inclination to cross myself.

Jill nodded her head and looked at Hillary who said, “I was next. I boarded my horse in Dover, and this one afternoon, about a week after we’d, reached out to Claire, I was riding the trails when something made me look into the woods to my left. I don’t know if I’d heard a noise or what, but I looked and Claire was there. Standing in the middle of the woods about, maybe, twenty or thirty feet back. I stopped the horse, and I raised my hand, like, to wave. It was just an instinct. She didn’t wave back, she just stared at me, then turned and started walking back into the woods.”

“Nope,” I said.

“My turn next,” said Vanessa, placing her wine glass on the table. “I was parked, over by the golf course, with Frank one night. We were in the back seat, just like, going at it and I opened my eyes and Claire was standing there, looking in the fucking car window.”

“No,” I said.

“I screamed and Frank turned to look and he couldn’t see her. I could see her – he couldn’t. She was just standing there. Staring. I freaked the fuck out. I scrambled into the front seat and drove out of there, half-naked,” she said with a small smile. “Frank thought that I had imagined it all. I tried to play it off, but she had been there.”

“Please tell me that’s it,” I said with chills running up and down my body. I wanted to leave, but was afraid to go outside.

“No,” Hillary said as the other two shake their heads.

“I mean, we had asked for her to stay with us, so at first we just tried to accept it as her way of, well, being there,” said Jill.

“We all caught glimpses of her, here and there, which resulted in differing levels of disturbing depending upon the circumstances,” said Hillary.

“Any circumstance under which I glimpsed my dead friend would disturb me,” I said.

“Yes, of course,” said Hillary. “But as long as she stayed outside, we accepted the good with the bad. We had asked for her help from the beyond. We knew we had to take some unwanted things with the things that we wanted.”

“Wait, stayed outside?’” I said.

“She began coming to us at night, in our bedrooms. I think Nessa had it the worst,” said Jill.

I looked at Vanessa. She was draining her glass. She said, “Claire liked to stand at the foot of my bed.”

My hand went to the medal around my neck. I asked, “What did you do?”

“At first we didn’t know what the hell to do. You know, it was only 1991, it wasn’t like we could Google this shit,” said Vanessa.

“I went to the library and found some stuff, but we ended up actually getting help at this occult bookstore in Cambridge. We found it in the yellow pages,” said Jill. “While we were looking around the owner asked us if we needed any help. We ended up telling her what we had done and she told us that we would need a binding spell. That we couldn’t undo what we did, but we could mitigate the damage.”

“We had to go back to the woods, to the same spot, and perform the incantation,” Hillary said.

“And?” I asked.

“And, things got better,” Hillary replied. “We saw her less, and when we did she stayed at a distance.”

“What about now?” I asked.

“It’s the same, really,” said Hillary.

“Uh uh,” I said.

“Again, we have to just take the good with the bad,” she replied. “We married the guys, we have kids, we are wealthy and we all live near one another. She played a role in that, and undoing her part in it might undo the rest of it.”

This was the first mention of “wealth” being a part of their requests. I wondered what else they had left off the list.

“When was the last time you saw her?” I asked.

The women look at one another and Vanessa said, “She was just past the tree line at my daughter’s soccer practice last night.”

“Why did you tell me this?” I demanded, genuinely perplexed.

“We thought you would be the only one who would believe us. When Jenn told us about you, we just felt like we could finally, unload it,” said Jill.

I didn’t want to hear another word. I wanted to call my husband to come get me. I didn’t want to ride in an Uber with a stranger. I didn’t want to know these women. I wanted to burn the fucking clothes that I was wearing and take a scalding hot shower to obliterate any particle of connection to them.

“I don’t know what to say,” I began. “I mean, you trapped your best friend here. I’ve never heard anything like it.”

“We just thought that something good should come from her death,” said Hillary.

“Was it worth it?” I asked.

None of them answered.


After climbing into the Uber I immediately texted my friends.

Our children are never stepping foot near Morses Pond. I wrote.

MOPO. Heidi responded immediately.


*** Historical information about Morses Pond was found on the Town of Wellesley website athttp://www.wellesleyma.gov/pages/wellesleyma_nrc/morsespond/Page5

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“Oh no no no, he’s in the woods, that’s where he stays most of the time, just at the edge of the tree line.”

Throughout my life I’ve had what I refer to as Horror Movie Dreams. They happen when I’m stressed. In these dreams, I am one of maybe five or six people and we are in a horror movie. I know this, though they do not. I know we will be picked off one by one by an axe wielding man (he’s always axe wielding, though I never see the axe). We are in a cabin, or a hotel, or my house, and I just have to wait and watch and say my lines until it is my turn. We have dialogue, movie dialogue, like “I am so glad we’re finally getting away for the weekend,” and “Did you hear that noise?” We are all young. We are friends, though I don’t recognize any of them. It is vivid and real and an impending sense of doom leaves the dream and follows me into the day.

I’d begun to have these Horror Movie Dreams every night.

Sure, I was stressed. Expecting my third child and all, but I didn’t think that was the problem. Out of nowhere my sister sent me a Blessed Mary medallion. She insisted that I wear it, especially when I was interviewing people. She said she’d “had a dream,” and was worried.

I was worried too. And so was C. He wanted me to take a break from the ghost interviews, said I was getting too wrapped up and it was freaking him out. Our phone would ring; yes we have a landline. C thought this was a silly waste of money, but he wouldn’t think that when the zombie apocalypse hit and we could call, well, other people with land lines. It was best that he didn’t know about the box I had stashed in the basement that contained a water purifier, Bear Grylls fire starter, handheld crank flashlight/cell phone charger/radio, first aid kit, candles, two survival fishing tins, instant coffee and waterproof matches. There was a drug dealer’s sized stash of twenty dollar bills in there too, though I hemmed and hawed over them. I mean, will money be worth anything when the zombies rise? Probably not, but trade might be the way, so the Starbucks Via instant coffee packets might allow us to live like post-apocalyptic kings.

Anyway, what was I talking about? The phone. So the landline was ringing a few times a day and when we answered there would be nothing and then a click. Like someone was listening and then would hang up. C insisted that I take the flyer down from the library. He had this whole plotline where a crazy old woman had taken down my name, googled it, found our home phone and address and was going to show up one night standing over us in bed. He kept talking about her bony hands and yellow teeth.

You know, I dragged him along on a walking ghost tour years ago, in Nantucket. He laughed it off, said it was so stupid. But that night he woke me up at two o’clock in the morning because he had to pee. I had to walk him to and from the bathroom because he was so frightened. I have to be careful what I expose him to. His imagination is worse than mine.

I admit it, I was a little jumpy too. But I like feeling jumpy. I like being scared and getting startled by the littlest noise. Besides that, I felt like l was on to something. This was the feeling that I had been chasing since I was young and in the woods behind my house pretending to be George (Nancy Drew’s boyish friend) searching for clues about the “forest ghost.”

Maybe there was a little magic, a little intrigue in life. Maybe everything wasn’t what it seemed. Maybe there was a veil and maybe it was thin. Maybe I could take the teeny tiniest little look-see and catch a glimpse of something wonderful and horrible and unimaginable.

Casey Cotton had freaked me out, with her dramatic warning about the darkness. But, in hindsight, I chalked it up to just that. Drama. I did believe her about her experiences with the Zila creeper, but what did that have to do with me?

I was ready to press on. And by press on, I meant, not really do anything, just listen to another person’s ghost story. I’d declined the invitation to the tunnels under Wellesley College. I just couldn’t do it. C played the “you’re pregnant, there’s no way you’re doing that,” card. I let him think that he’d made the decision for me, but in reality, I was too chicken.

There was this one intriguing email in my inbox, though. It was from a woman whose kids went to Fiske, the elementary school that shared a parking lot with the Wellesley preschool, P.A.W.S., that my oldest daughter attended. This woman had actually heard of my interviews through a mutual acquaintance who had kids at both schools. She suggested that we meet on the playground after morning drop off. There were some picnic tables and we could bring coffee and she would tell me her story.

It was a safe place to meet. The acquaintance gave a solid reference for this woman. The weather had turned and the mornings were gorgeous. She had me at coffee.


 

It was warm, but cloudy and quite windy the day that I met Peyton Trellis. Preschool opened about fifteen minutes after the elementary school, so she was already sitting at a picnic table when I approached the playground. I had been curious about this superbly named woman since I’d first seen her email address, a simple peyton_trellis@me.com. She didn’t disappoint.

You know how there are photos of super chic women on instagram – the one’s that look like they were just caught on the street on any given day in an outfit so effortlessly cool it is almost exciting? Yeah, well, Peyton Trellis could have been one of those women.

She was straddling the picnic table bench, in perfectly worn skinny jeans – with one expertly ripped knee – a white, tissue paper thin t-shirt and a worn leather, fitted, sort of, like, tight, grey leather jacket. You know the kind. She had on diamond studs the size of my big toe, and a friendship bracelet. Seriously. It was all pastels and ratty and so agonizingly cool I wanted to clap. There was Not. A. Stitch. Of. Makeup. on her creamy skin. Hair down to her elbows. Not beachwaved, like, cooler than that. It was bedhead-waved. The bitch woke up like this. It was 8:50am for God’s sake.

I couldn’t stop myself, “You look amazing,” I said, awkwardly climbing onto the picnic table bench across from her.

Peyton pushed Chanel (Chanel!!) sunglasses up to the top of her head and smiled. There was a tiny gap between her top two front teeth and she had a dimple when she smiled.

Enough already, I thought.

“Liz?” She said, reaching across the table to shake my hand. “It’s so great to meet you!”

She was facing the wind, so it whipped her hair prettily. I had my back to the wind, so my hair flapped against my cheeks angrily. I shook her hand then reached into my bag for my baseball hat. I had on running pants and a workout shirt – Old Navy, not LuLu Lemon.

“Michelle didn’t tell me you were pregnant, when are you due?” She asked.

“Early August,” I told her.

We chatted a bit about babies (she loved them), hospitals (she’d delivered at Beth Israel Deaconess too), and cars (the car seat space in a Suburban vs. a Volvo).

Eventually, Peyton said, “Ok, soooo, my haunted house! I am so psyched to tell you about it!” As though she were telling me about a new pedicure place she’d discovered.

“Where is your house?” I asked.

“It’s close by, do you know that pond over that way?” She asked, motioning with her hand.

“Yup, I’ve walked the trail there a couple times,” I replied.

“Exactly, well, my house is right on that pond. It’s on a street right off of Oakland, set pretty far back into the woods.”

“That sounds lovely. Five houses overlook our backyard.” I said with a laugh.

“Yeah, it is nice to have the privacy,” she agreed. “But it can get a bit spooky at times, especially at night. And when we lose power, ugh, the worst.”

“Especially if you have a ghost,” I said.

“Exactly!” She declared. “Ok, where should I start?

“Um,” I said, “Well, when did you first start to notice odd things happening at home?”

I liked this woman. I felt like she had stepped out of a television series about forty-something parents living in California. She had a sense of humor, and I’d like to be friends with her, but the way she had referred to her haunting already had me a little disappointed. I mean, she sounded a bit too excited. I was bummed because I had been in the mood to be scared. So it was a pleasant surprise to be so freaked out by her story that I wouldn’t be able to go into our basement for the next two weeks to do laundry. Really – I had to buy new underwear for my daughter when we ran out. My husband could fend for himself.

Ooo-Kay,” Peyton began, nibbling a thumbnail in thought. “So we moved into the house about six years ago, and I guess it was, really the day we moved in that I knew something was, like, off, you know?”

I nodded in encouragement.

“We had to do a ton of work to the house, it was built in 1796,” she said.

“Whoa, that is, like, I don’t know, how old is it?” I asked.

“This year the house turns 220 years old,” she said with a sigh. “Oh, and don’t worry,” she reached across the table to touch my arm, “we didn’t, like, go in and make it all modern tract home.

I hadn’t been worried, it hadn’t really occurred to me. “Of course not,” I said.

“We hired a historic restoration company. They were meticulous, basically taking apart the home bit by bit, mending it, and putting it right back in place. I’m from California,” called it, I thought, “Everything was, so, new, where I grew up. Very cookie- cutter. When I came to Wellesley for college, I fell in love with the New England aesthetic. I lived in Beacon Hill for a few years with my husband, Derek, and we restored a brownstone.”

“My husband and I lived in Beacon Hill for a few years too, what street were you on?” I asked.

“Stop it right now!” She said excitedly, “We were on Mount Vernon! Where were you?”

“River Street for two years but before that we were on Willow, between Chestnut and Mount Vernon. Small world,” I said.

“I bet we ran past each other on the Esplanade, and waited in line at the Starbucks together and didn’t know it!”

“Totally,” I agreed. “And you probably saw me fighting back tears while I attempted to maneuver a Bob double stroller down the sidewalk.”

“Amen,” she said, nodding her head. “That’s what eventually pushed us out here too.”

“It was so romantic to think about bringing the kids up in Boston, but, we just tapped out after the second,” I affirmed.

“Ditto,” she said, “We still have the brownstone, I couldn’t bear to sell it. Derek has dreams of living there when the kids go to college, but, who knows. I like it out here, it’s quiet and this town has the most interesting people. I mean look at this. It’s a random Tuesday morning and here we are, sitting in a playground and I am telling you about my haunted house.”

We laughed, and she continued, “But yeah, the house. The first day we moved in I was unpacking the kitchen. The kids were out with my parents, who’d come to help us with the move.

“I was sitting on the floor opening boxes and I misplaced my exacto knife. I heard stomping around upstairs so I called to my husband, asking if he could grab one for me and bring it down. ‘Yeah, hang on a second,’ he called back. It was a bit harsh, but I figured he might be in the middle of something.

“I stood up to stretch my legs and grab a glass of water at the sink. I was turning off the tap when I looked out the window and saw Derek, his arms filled with boxes, walking out of the barn and towards the house. I seriously didn’t believe my eyes for a minute. It had been, at most, like, two minutes since I had called up to him and he had answered from upstairs. There was no way that he could be walking out of the barn. But he was.”

“So who the hell answered you?” I asked.

“Right? I totally freaked out. I mean, I literally stared at him for a moment and took off out the back door saying, ‘Oh, my God. Oh, my God. Oh, my God.’ and pretty much ran into Derek, knocking the boxes out of his hands. He thought I had seen a mouse or something. Come on! I kill the mice and spiders. He’s too afraid of them.”

“Did you guys search the house?” I asked.

“Totally. Derek stomped into the house, all puffed up, yelling, ‘Hello? Sir?’ Which we laughed about later, but he walked through the entire house. He even climbed up those stairs that go up to our attic, you know, the ones you pull down from the ceiling? He didn’t find anyone! I would have thought I had imagined it, but it was so real.”

“I would have sold the house immediately,” I said, honestly.

“Ha!” She laughs, giving my arm a light slap. “I mean, of course it freaked me out, but I just, like, sort of got wrapped up in unpacking and didn’t think too much about it. At the time, the Trips were only three years old, so I had my hands full.”

“Trips?” I asked.

“Oh, sorry. The triplets, that’s just what we always call them.”

“You have triplet boys?” I asked, about to get up and walk away from the table.

“Yes! They are nine now! I can’t believe it,” she said, shaking her beautiful head of hair. “I feel like I blinked and I have these three little men living in my house.”

“Right,” I said. “They do grow up so quickly.” Meaning, there but for the grace of God go I.

“Ok, but anyway, we were busy moving in and chasing the Trips around. I was trying my best to make new friends here so I signed up for the Juniors and Wellesley Mother’s Forum.  We were out of the house so much during the day, but I began to notice this funny thing whenever I came home.

“Anything that had been left on the edge of the kitchen counter would be knocked off. Sippy cups, keys, the mail, toys. It wasn’t like these things were just falling off by themselves. And then it finally dawned on me! I used to have this cat, when I was in my twenties, he was a little rescue tabby and he would do this exact same thing whenever I went out. I made a game of it for him, actually. Crumpling up paper balls and twist ties and putting them on the counter so he could have plenty of things to play with when I wasn’t home. And, it helped me from cleaning up, he would only knock off the paper and ties, not the other stuff.

“And it was happening again! But Jude Paw had been dead for, like 15 years!”

“How – “ I began to ask.

“I know! I think his ghost is at the house. I really do,” Peyton held her hands in a Scout’s Honor position.

I opened my mouth to say something, but, for the life of me, I couldn’t think of anything to say.

“I know, I sound crazy as hell, but listen. I did an experiment. I crumpled up a bunch of papers like I used to and lined them up on the counter among all  of the other junk. We went out for the day and when I came back, I swear to Goddess Earth, only the paper had been knocked to the floor.”

Again, I was speechless. Sure the ghost cat experiment was chilling – on many levels – and the fact that she had named her cat Jude Paw was fucking brilliant, but “Goddess Earth” had thrown me for a loop.

“I know, I know, it is totally unbelieveable. But that was just the beginning!” She exclaimed.

“No, it’s not unbelievable, I am just processing. I haven’t heard of many animal hauntings,” I said.

“I know, right?”

“Is it still happening?” I asked.

“Oh yeah, we all treat him like the family pet now. The boys leave paper and little twist ties out for him to play with.”

“That’s sweet,” I said, meaning, that’s really fucked up.

Peyton smiled, “I know, it’s saved us from having to get a dog.”

Oh dear, I thought, grateful that my daughters were too young to be in school with this woman’s children.

“So you have a ghost cat, but did you hear anything else from the guy stomping around upstairs on moving day?”

“Oh, yeah, you could say that,” she said, rolling her eyes. “The rest of the spirits seem pretty benign, but he has a dark energy around him. If I’m not vigilant with my good intentions, his bad intentions could take over.”

I decided to let the ‘the rest of the spirits’ comment slide for a moment, and asked, “What has he done?”

“I call him The Watcher. His hostility is palpable. I meditate after yoga every morning in our sunroom. It’s a fantastic space, with all of the windows you feel like you are in the middle of the woods. It is very restful, unless he is present. Often times, I feel as though I am being watched as I practice yoga.” She said.

“He’s in the room with you and you still do yoga?” I asked, horrified.

“Oh, no no no, he’s in the woods, that’s where he stays most of the time, just at the edge of the tree line. With all of the windows in the sunroom I can just feel him watching me. Then, when I begin to meditate, if he is feeling particularly bold, he will try and communicate with me. He is angry, so angry. I don’t know if he lived in our home, or on the property at some point. But he rants and raves about the barn.”

What the fuck? I think, at a total loss for words. She’s talking to a dead man who watches her do yoga in the mornings?

“I know! I know! I sound crazy, but I’ve always been sensitive to the other side. Even when I was a little girl, I can remember seeing spirits around my crib. I’ve always just accepted them, even the bad ones. They are on their journey, live and let live.”

“Or live and let die,” I said.

“Well, right,” Peyton laughed.

“What does your husband think of this Watcher?” I asked.

“Well, the only time that he senses him is in the barn. He was getting the chills and a creepy feeling, like he would turn around at any moment and see a man there. Then one day he had been working up in the loft and as he went to climb back down the ladder he felt something try and push it away from the wall. He could have been really hurt.

“So, I saged the barn’s interior and salted the doorways and windows. This created a bit of protection, but it enraged the entity. Now when Derek’s working in there, he sees shadows walk past the windows and hears knocking on the door. But, the salt and sage keep the spirit out.”

“Peyton, that is terrifying,” I said, not sure what to think of this woman and her story.

“It’s just a dead person,” she replied with a shrug.

“How can you be sure? What if it is something pretending to be a dead person?” I asked.

“Oh, I would know. We have some of those too, in our basement,” she said.

“Some of what?” I asked.

“I guess I would call them lower astral entities. They are these little creatures who seem to be attached to our home. I have done some work to keep them in the basement, but their attachment is so strong that I can’t seem to get rid of them,” she said.

“What the fuck are they?” I asked, picturing Gremlins in 3-D glasses watching T.V. in a basement playroom.

“They are these little, like, critters that sort of scurry and stay just out of the light. They are super negative and definitely want to attach to one of us. But I’ve prayed protections over the Trips and Derek. Though there’s been a kerfuffle or two when we’ve had people come to work on the house. The electrical and heating systems are in the basement and these critters jump at the opportunity to attach. One electrician actually came back to the house and asked me to take one of the things back. It had followed him home and was pulling the covers off him at night and putting bad thoughts into his mind. They somehow feed on negative energy, so they do their best to generate it.”

“Lord have mercy,” I said. “Why are you still living in this house?”

“The house is perfect for us, it just takes a little extra effort. And, honestly? I am a kind of beacon for these things. It really doesn’t matter where I live. Things find me.”

“What about your kids?” I asked. “Do they see anything?”

“Well, they play with the cat,” she began which was just about the most macabre thing I had ever heard in my entire life. Allowing your triplets play with a ghost cat? Fucking ghoulish.

Peyton continued, “They get creeped out by The Watcher and I simply won’t allow them in the basement. But, Gunner, one of the boys, seems to have inherited some of my abilities, so I have to keep an eye on him.”

“How so?” I ask, not wanting to know. At all.

“He is quite open to communication, and I just have to make sure that he isn’t, like, letting anything in. When he was really little he would stare at empty space as we were playing and then say things like, ‘Mama, that little girl’s dress is all wet, she says she fell into the pond,’ or he’d draw a picture of two stick figures lying on the ground in a forest and explain that they ate the wrong kind of berries. It just wasn’t stuff that a little kid could come up with on his own.”

“Does he still see things?” I ask, making a mental note to pay closer attention to what my four year old was drawing instead of just throwing out the pile of papers from preschool.

“He does, but he has better control over it now. I had to do some protections over him. I sage him once in awhile and have salted all around his bed. When he was seven, he and his brothers were in the playroom and I was cleaning up and left them for a while. I came back and his brothers were sitting watching him write with a crayon. He’d filled about ten pages, top to bottom, front and back.

“‘What are you boys up to?’ I asked, thinking it was some kind of game. Paxton and Dane just looked up at me and didn’t say anything. Gunner wouldn’t answer me, he wouldn’t even look up. I had to grab his hands to stop him from writing and it took him a moment to sort of snap out of this, like uber-focused daze.

“He was disoriented and I was totally freaked out, so I set them up to watch television in the living room and went back and gathered the pages he had written. It was all sorts of nonsense. Some of the words I couldn’t decipher, but I could read some of them and they were tweeked. ‘Revenge,’ was written over and over and I could kind of make out a story about a woman and her husband, ‘he’ll pay’ and “where’s the baby’ were two sentences I could make out. One page just spelled out ‘revenge.’ But it was, like, one line of R’s the next line of E’s, then V’s and so on. Written in crayon it looked psychotic. But I think a spirit had just communicated through him about something in her life.” She shrugged. She actually shrugged her shoulders. After telling me this. Shrugged.

“Peyton, that’s called automatic writing and it’s when a spirit possesses you so it can write through you,” I said.

“Mmm,” she agreed, nodding. “It really is quite an advanced skill, so I was amazed that he could do it so easily,”

“Do you do automatic writing?” I asked, wary of the answer.

“I have in the past, yes, but now I use my angel cards when I feel like a message needs to come through.”

In case you’re not familiar, angel cards are basically tarot cards. Users believe the information gleaned from the cards is coming from angels, unlike tarot cards which are relied upon to tell the future through a darker divination. Personally, I neither understand nor trust the subtle  difference.

“Peyton, this is a lot to digest. I don’t know what to say. You’re sort of tied up in a lot of different things. And you’re opening up to them. It’s like the beginning of a horror movie and in the end, someone is going to need an exorcism or major medication.”

“Oh, no! I don’t want you to get the wrong idea, I’m sort of only telling you the weird stuff. There’s so much good too! The other spirits in the house, the one’s besides The Watcher, they are so helpful and they totally surround us with love and light. I did have to put my foot down when the boys started talking about playing hide ‘n seek with a little boy named Jeremy. I caught them halfway down the basement steps before I told them that space and that game were off limits. The boy wanted them to hide down there.”

“Uh uh,” I said, shaking my head.

“I know. It was, you know, like, worrisome, but we’ve talked through it, and they understand that not every spirit has good intentions.”

Oh, for the love of Pete, I thought. This nitwit was seriously going to get one of her Trips sucked into another dimension.

I asked, “Why are there so many of these things in your house? It’s infested.”

“It’s my fault, really. I just attract spirits and other, you know, entities. I’ve worked hard at opening my mind through meditation, but I suspect it may have opened some sort of a portal that allows beings come in and out of this realm. The angel cards have hinted at it.”

“You need to be careful,” I said.

“I am,” she replied. “I’ve had years of practice. My parents were Spiritualists, and very knowledgeable.”

Fuuuuuuuuuck. I thought. Those were the people of table raps and séances. Mediumship and spirit guides. Skeptics wrote them off as charlatan performers. But that was too simplistic. If nothing else, where there’s smoke there’s fire. Or, in this case, where there’s tapping there might be dead people.

This woman had hodgepodged the shit out of a bunch of occult practices and spiritual belief systems and if what she said was true about her house, she had, indeed, fucked things up royally. She was super cool, and, I mean, call me judgmental, but she was legit nuts. Not as in, “I see dead people,” nuts, no, that would be interesting. She was “I think I may have opened a portal but I’ve totally got it under control,” nuts.

“So you’re alright with all this, I mean, you don’t have any problem with the hauntings, negative or otherwise?” I asked.

“Oh sure, I’m more than alright with it, I welcome it,” she said, as though she couldn’t understand why I would even ask. “You should come to the house and see for yourself. It isn’t all creepy footsteps and slamming doors. If you are open to them, they are comforting.”

Um, hell’s no. I thanked her for the offer, but was honest and said that I was too chicken to actually experience anything paranormal. Our conversation petered out after that. I think I offended her by saying that I was frightened of her home. We were polar opposites where the unexplainable was concerned. She wanted to be right up in it. I wanted my paranormality second hand, maybe even third to be safe.

It was an obvious wedge between us, which was disappointing because I could have seen us having a cold glass of Chardonnay together while we kept an eye on the kids in the backyard – my backyard, not her backyard, obviously. Well, honestly, I wouldn’t let my girls near her kids. But, had things been a little different, we might have been tight.

We parted ways and I rushed to the grocery store for milk. I had time to drop it off at the house before returning to the school to pick up Max.

When I got home I put the milk in the fridge, threw my keys on the counter and rifled through the mail. I made a quick run to the bathroom and came right back into the kitchen. All of my mail was on the kitchen floor alongside my keys.

Shit.

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Zila

Emails sat in my inbox, awaiting reply. The woman from Wellesley College had offered to arrange a tour of the tunnels beneath the campus. She wanted to tell me the campus ghost stories as we toured the underground maze – accompanied by a campus security guard/groundskeeper “just in case we get lost.”

This sort of safe scare had been exactly what I wanted when I started this quest for ghost stories; I could vacation to the land of ghosties without having to put down roots. The problem was that I had begun to realize that there wasn’t any such thing as a safe scare. I was looking into the darkness, and I’ll be damned if there weren’t moments when I suspected that it was looking back.

That creeper Nick knew I was pregnant before I did. My dreams had been getting strange. I had been obsessing a bit. Reading up on hauntings and demons, ghosts, and possession. My husband, C, wanted me to take a break from the ghost research to watch Shark Tank with him. Though tempting, I had to pass.

I didn’t need a break, I needed to reframe my quest. I couldn’t be a looky-loo, stomping around in these people’s reality, oohing and ahhing like a tourist in Beacon Hill. I needed to treat this with a bit more awe, a touch more respect. I realized that I was avoiding people’s stories because I needed to get up the nerve to face them. To recognize them for what they really were.

These stories weren’t just there for entertainment. They were glimpses into the darkness. And I needed to decide if I wanted that darkness to catch a glimpse of me.

I volunteer at the Wellesley food pantry once a week. Nothing major, just a couple hours of unloading donations and restocking shelves. And yes – there is need of a food pantry in Wellesley. Not everyone in town summers on Martha’s Vineyard and drives a Land Rover. The pantry has two collection bins, one at Whole Foods the other at the Roche Brothers. Grab an extra can of tuna fish next time you’re grocery shopping and pop it into one of the bins. Believe it or not, you can’t always spot hunger. It might look like your next door neighbor who is quietly struggling to keep up with her medical bills and has to choose between bankruptcy and lunch.

Anyway, the pantry – knowing that I will chat with adults about something other than children’s’ books or the children who read them, even if only for two tiny hours, anchors my week. One of the volunteers at the pantry, Gary, a seventy-seven year old ex-marine, was really enthusiastic about my “scary Wellesley stories,” as he called them. It was his belief that the spirits were acting out because they had a message that needed hearing. I wasn’t so sure.

“You aren’t going to believe this,” he said, one Monday morning as he unloaded a grocery bag full of pasta sauce.

“You’re getting remarried to a twenty-five year old who just ‘gets’ you.” I said.

“Bambi isn’t just a pretty face,” he replied.

“Where are you registered?” I asked, throwing away an open, half-used bag of potato chips. Honestly, think before you donate.

“Costco,” he replied. “Really, though, my neighbor has a ghost story for you!”

“Oh?” I said, a bad feeling coming over me.

“Yes! I told her all about you. She has an old ghost story,” he replied.

“What kind of a ghost story?” I asked with a pit in my stomach.

“As charming as I am I couldn’t get her to elaborate, but she hinted that it was something that happened to her when she was young.”

“How old is she now?” I asked.

“Oh, I don’t know, anyone under sixty seems like a child to me. Maybe she’s in her fifties. What’s the matter?” He asked.

“Nothing,” I said. “I mean, I don’t know, I just started to feel funny. It’s nothing.” I don’t know what had come over me, but I was chilled to the core.

“You’d better go sit down,” Gary demanded. “That baby of yours needs a break.”

I waved off his concern, But I couldn’t shake the feeling. Gary kept talking about the paranormal and said that he had given this woman, Casey, my email address.

I changed the subject.

That night as I checked my email a message popped up from ccotton1966@wellesleycares.org. I opened it and realized it was from Gary’s neighbor, Casey. Casey Cotton. She said she had a ghost story. A “cautionary tale” that she wanted to share. Could she treat me to lunch at The Local?

My initial reaction was to her name. Casey Cotton sounded like the girl reporter in a superhero comic book. I looked over her email address and googled “Wellesley Cares.” A website for a non-profit community group came up. A photo of Casey sitting at a table surrounded by senior citizens in wheelchairs adorned the “About” page.

I texted my friend Heidi and asked if she’d ever heard of Casey Cotton or Wellesley Cares.

You don’t need another project. She texted back.

She has a ghost story, have you heard of her?

Heard of her? That woman is a legend. She was President of the Juniors and I think she had something to do with starting luminary night. You can’t name a board she hasn’t been on. North 40, Save our Neighborhood Schools, Say No to Number 1 –  that’s all her. She started the Community Cares deal awhile back and runs the Boston Marathon every year to raise money for it. Heidi texted back immediately.

You just moved here, how do you know all of this? I asked.

How do you NOT know this? Heidi replied.

I emailed Casey Cotton and we set a lunch date for the following week. I declined her offer to pay. We’d go dutch. But this strange cloud of, I don’t know, dread, I guess, hovered over me the rest of the week. I had vivid dreams of dancing around a fire and walking through thick forests in darkness. People hidden just out of sight.

Casey Cotton was adorable. Wild, red hair streaked with gray framed a pale face, sprinkled with freckles and lightly traced laugh lines. She wore head-to-toe Chico’s and carried a big Prada tote with grommet detail. She had a complete look, and she was killing it.

I was wearing maternity jeans a blue and white striped shirt with navy flats and wrapped a hot pink scarf around my neck in a complicated knot.  I had been feeling so stylish when I left the house. When I saw Casey, I immediately regretted my horizontal stripes.

We exchanged hellos. She was a hugger, which had become awkward for me as of late, with my expansion and all. She smelled of overly flowery perfume with a cigarette smoke undertone. We sat at a high top table near the bar.

“What’s it like to be Gary’s neighbor?” I asked after we’d ordered drinks (seltzer water for me and a Chardonnay for Casey).

“It’s a dream!” she replied, sliding her napkin onto her lap. “He trims back my hydrangeas in the fall and I practically have to beat him off with a stick when the leaves come down. He has this leaf blower –“

“He brought it over last fall,” I said with a laugh. “I couldn’t convince him otherwise.”

“He is so excited about your project,” she said.

“I know it, we discuss it at the pantry.”

“He told you about my story, then?” She asked, raising an eyebrow.

“Well, no. He said you didn’t give him many details but that you had a ghost story from when you were young.”

“I do. But as I said in my email, it’s really more of a cautionary tale. It’s something that actually changed my life – ultimately for the better. But, not without some difficulty.”

Get to it, then. I felt like saying. Just tell the damn story.

Lately, I was a touch cranky when I was hungry. I was hungry.

“I sort of view all ghost stories as cautionary tales,” I said, relieved to see our waitress approaching the table with our drinks. “Do you mind bringing some bread?” I asked her. She glanced at my protruding stomach and nodded.

Casey got around to telling her story after a bit more chatter over the menu. Looking back, I wish I hadn’t been in such a rush to hear it.

I was pretty wild as a teenager,” she began. “You name it, I did it. It was a classic ‘my parents are getting a divorce, I’m sad and scared and don’t know how to handle it,” reaction. I see that now, but at the time. I thought it was all just an escape. They were both distracted, my siblings were already out of the house and I was there alone. A lot of kids get themselves into trouble in high school one way or the other. But I took it to the extreme. Honestly, though, that’s my personality. Once I’m in, I’m all in.”

“What sorts of things did you get into?” I asked, thinking this polished woman probably just did a couple kegs stands and got arrested for smoking pot in the woods.

The bread basket arrived and I dug in. Casey sipped her wine before responding.

“The usual teenage stuff, of course. Beer, pot, sneaking out at night. As I traveled deeper into the darkness I had to take things up a notch just to keep up.”

I stopped pulling apart my second piece of bread and said, “Darkness?”

“Yes, darkness,” she confirmed. “I was drawn to it and the people it surrounded. What began as a few beers around a campfire escalated to acid trips in the woods.”

She had my attention.

“You know, I’m not sure what your experience has been, but the people that are drawn to these things. Drugs, drinking, etc… are broken, especially the young ones. I don’t care what they say. What begins as a numbing agent ends as a slow painful burn.”

I just nodded my head. Processing.

The waitress returned and took our lunch orders. A salad for Casey with dressing on the side, and a cheeseburger with bacon and fries on the side for me. I said I was hungry.

“So you were drawn in by the numb feeling that the drugs offered?” I prompted.

“Yes, at least that is what drew me in at first. I was, oh I don’t know, a sophomore in high school and what, fifteen probably. I was stealing money from my mom so I could smoke a pack of cigarettes a day, cutting school, riding around with older guys. I thought I was the coolest thing. So young and so stupid.”

I smiled, “Well you can’t fault yourself for that. We were all there once.”

“Right, but again, like I said. Once I’m in, I’m all in. I started hanging out with a group of guys that were into the occult. They dressed in black and painted their fingernails black, and drove black cars and had black hair, black bedroom walls, even black eyeliner.

“When I was with them, I felt like I was in on some kind of inside joke. They made me feel like I belonged, for once. I spent more and more time with them. A couple of other girls hung out with them too, we dressed like the guys. I even dyed my hair -”

“No!” I exclaimed, motioning to her beautiful auburn locks.

“I know,” she laughs, “My mother just about died when I came home with dull, jet black hair.”

I shook my head, “So what did you do when you all hung out? What kind of occult stuff were they into?”

“At the time I thought it was just harmless stuff. We’d go out at night into the woods around Morses Pond. They would make a campfire in the middle of a pentagram and chant some words that I didn’t understand. Or we’d sit around with a ouija board and try to contact our ‘spirit guides.’ One of the girls was into tarot cards and she would ‘read’ us and tell us our fate.”

“Spooky,” I said, smiling as the waitress placed a huge cheeseburger in front of me.

“It was, but it was all pretty tame,” Casey said, slicing up her salad. “But then one night I snuck out to go to this guy’s place. The house was just two streets over from mine, he had graduated the year before and was living in his parents basement.”

“You are making me so nervous,” I said. “I am picturing my daughters doing the same thing, and it scares the hell out of me.”

Casey smiled, “Don’t worry, just pay attention to them. Know who their friends are, they’ll be fine.”

“That seems to be the party line,” I said with a laugh. “So, what did you do that night?”

“It was like a lot of other nights. We smoked pot and listened to horrible music. Then my friend, Ben, had the idea to play around with the ouija board.

“There were five of us who played, four guys and me. Things started out pretty normal, we were joking around, asking about prom dates. Making fun of the whole thing, when secretly, I’m sure we all would have liked to be a part of that world.

“Then someone asked if there were any spirit guides with us and the board answered ‘yes.’ When we asked it whose guide was there, it spelled out my name. Feeling cocky I challenged the board to tell us something no one else knew about me. It spelled out Avalon,” she pauses and sips her wine. “My dad had moved out the weekend before to the Avalon apartments in Newton. I hadn’t told anyone.”

Unable to speak because I had just taken a huge bite of burger, I shook my head and made an “Uh, uh,” noise.

“I tried to laugh it off, but I think the guys knew that the board had hit on something. ‘Tell us more about Casey,’ one of them said. The board spelled out ‘Hutchins here.’ It was the name of my childhood cat. It had died when I was ten. None of them could have known that. Then the board spelled, ‘meow.’

“Nope,” I said, putting my burger down.

“I took my hands off the planchette. I didn’t want to play any more, but they gave me a hard time. Said I couldn’t stop until I closed the board with them or the portal would be left open.”

“I thought that was just something from movies,” I said, parroting something that creeper Nick had said.

“No, you have to close the board and end communication. Everyone knows that,” Casey said. “You haven’t left a board open, have you?” She asked, in a forced whisper.

“No! I’ve never played with a ouija board,” I replied.

Casey sat back in the chair, “Lucky you,” she said. “Well, they convinced me to keep playing and found out that my spirit guide’s name was Zila. She said that she watched over me and influenced my drawings.

“I hadn’t told anyone about the pencil drawings that filled my notebooks. I had been drawing dark forests for weeks. Sometimes, when I was in class, I would look down at my notebook and see an entire page covered in dark, gnarled trees.”

“Trees?” I asked, my dreams returning to me. Goosebumps prickled my arms.

“Trees,” she confirmed, her fork stabbing at her salad. “After it mentioned the drawings I just refused to play anymore. I refused to help them close the board, they all gave me a hard time about it. I made a friend walk me back home, but believe me, I didn’t sleep that night.”

“I don’t think I’ll be able to sleep tonight,” I said.

“Yeah, well, that is just the beginning. Long story short, things went from bad to worse in high school. I got into trouble for skipping classes and I got arrested once for smoking pot in the woods near Morses Pond.”

Called it! I thought to myself. “Did you ever play with the ouija board again?” I asked.

“No. I wanted nothing to do with it, and after that night I began to pull away from those people. I was friends with a couple girls in my grade and we were outsiders, together. Actually, you know, there was this one time that they wanted to play the ouija board, I refused, but they did it while I watched. They asked if there were any spirits present and the board spelled out ‘Zila.’”

“Ok,” I said, “Now I won’t sleep for a week.”

Casey laughed, “I know. It was freaky, and honestly, it seemed impossible. That time in my life was a mess, bad luck just clung to me, repelling people. I barely managed to graduate from high school. My parents didn’t know what to do with me. But then, I didn’t know what to do with me either. I was terrible to them and I knew it, but I couldn’t get out of my own way.”

I smiled sympathetically, “I think we spend the rest of our lives making up for the way we acted from age thirteen to twenty-one. I know I have several people that deserve an apology.”

Casey nodded in agreement.

“At least you made it through high school,” I said, overcome with sadness for this poor woman who had obviously been left to fend for herself during her parents’ divorce.

“There was no chance I could get into college, not that I had bothered applying anywhere. By fate, our church had a missionary program in Brazil that summer. A neighbor’s son had gone the year before. Supposedly, he came back a ‘different boy, all straightened out.’ My parents were sold and I was destined for Sao Paulo, Brazil.”

“I was to volunteer in a youth center. It was an after school program to keep teenagers off the streets. The brochure the church gave my parents said that I would ‘experience what life is like as a local Brazilian.’ And I would ‘immerse’ myself in the local culture. If they had known the local culture that I would be immersed in, I think they probably would have kept me home and gotten me a job at the McDonald’s.”

“How long were you there?” I asked, finishing off the last of my fries.

“Two horrible months,” she replied, sliding her half finished salad out of the way. I had to stop myself from sliding it in front of me.

“What was it like?” I asked, remembering my summers as a teen. Painting our house with my dad, waitressing, tubing on Cazenovia lake.

“Well, the work we were doing wasn’t bad. I was there with about twenty other volunteers all around my age. Most of them had elected to go, treating it as missionary work. Though, through their proselytizing, they alienated most of the kids we were supposed to help. These Brazilians were solid in their belief in God, but their beliefs were a mix of Catholicism, African traditions, and Spiritism. We were a bunch of upper class, American, Born Agains. The two belief systems were night and day. I mean, what would you expect someone who practices voodoo to think of the Rapture?”

“I didn’t know New England had any Born Again Christians,” I said.

“My parents were from Tennessee,” she replied.

“I was making a bad joke,” I said, with an awkward laugh. “Sorry, go on.”

“Well, anyway, we had the mornings to ourselves, I would usually go on a walk or read or draw. I was still drawing the trees. Pages of dead trees. Then in the afternoons we were to report to the community center and help high school kids with their homework. Play cards with them, or make bracelets, just pass the time. We were basically entertaining them so they wouldn’t fall into drugs and drinking or any of the other dark things that I had done at home. Talk about the blind leading the blind.

“I made friends with a couple of the girls. It was nice at first. I didn’t feel like such a horrible outsider when I was with them. Then one afternoon one of the girl’s mothers came to the center to walk her daughter home. I was sitting at a table with the girl, Maria, and a couple of her friends and her mother came over to us. Her mom took one look at me and said ‘Kiumba! Kiumba!’ In a loud, scary voice.

“Everyone in the room turned to stare. Maria tried to calm her mom down. But the woman was crossing herself and pointing. She kept saying, ‘kiumba’ over and over again. I said I was sorry and that I didn’t know what it meant. The girl dragged her mom out of the community center, but not before I heard her say, ‘Zila.’”

“Stop it,” I said. “No way.”

“It was awful, I tried to follow them out but one of the center organizers stopped me. I was reeling. I felt like I was losing my mind.”

“I can’t even imagine,” I said. “What did you do?”

“Well, the girl didn’t return to the center for two days. I asked a couple of the kids what the word ‘kiumba’ meant. A few of them just crossed themselves and walked away when I asked.

“Finally, a boy told me that it’s an evil spirit who attaches itself to a person. It causes mental problems, like depression and paranoia. It’s whole purpose is to possess a person and cause them harm, and, well, cause them to harm others. The boy said that they are the ‘fathers of addiction.’

“When he said that, it hit home. I had been smoking cigarettes like a fiend. I had worked my way up to two packs a day, though I could have smoked more. It was as if I was driven to smoke. It wasn’t a choice.”

“Good Lord,” I said.

“Eventually, Maria came back to the center. She tried to avoid me, but I wouldn’t let her. I begged her to tell me what her mother had been so upset about. Finally, she agreed.” Casey motioned to the waitress and asked for another glass of Chardonnay. I requested the dessert menu.

“So what did she tell you?” I asked, after ordering the flourless chocolate cake. Don’t judge.

“She said that her mother saw a dark spirit, what she called a ‘master kiumba’ standing behind me. She said it’s claws were in my back, that she had never seen one so big, so dark.”

“Geez,” I said.

“I asked her what I was supposed to do about it, how it got there, why it was with me. She said that I had let it in somehow and now that it had a hold of me it wasn’t going to let go.

“I know this all sounds crazy,” Casey says.

“No,” I said. “It’s just, really scary.”

“Well, it felt crazy,” Casey said, sipping her wine. “But somehow, I just knew that it was right. I knew that something had been with me since that first night in my friend’s basement with the ouija board. It felt as though, if I could turn just around fast enough, I would see something behind me. Hidden just out of sight.”

I put my fork down, again, reminded of the feeling of my dreams.

Casey continued, “It only got worse. That night I called and begged my parents to let me come home. My mom said that I needed to learn to ‘honor my commitments’ and my dad said it would be way to expensive to change my plane ticket. I was stuck. I wasn’t sleeping. I couldn’t stop smoking cigarettes. None of the kids at the community center would even look at me, let alone speak to me. The other volunteers steered clear too. I was a basket case.

“Then this one evening, as we were about to close the center, the girl, Maria, stayed behind and told me that her mother wanted me to meet someone, a priest who practiced Macumba. It’s what they call voodoo in Brazil. He was a Quimbanda practitioner, black magic. The story of my kiumba had gotten back to him and he wanted to see for himself. Maria asked me to go to her home to meet him.”

“This sounds bad,” I said.

“It was. She was insistent. I guess you can’t just say no to a Quimbanda priest. Not unless you want trouble to rain down. I didn’t feel like I had a choice, and I was so isolated and panicked that I probably would have done anything.

“So, I went with her and met this man. He looked,” she sipped her wine, considering. “Well, he looked, totally normal. I had been expecting someone in black hooded robes, but he was wearing a polo shirt and khakis. I even drank tea with him and Maria translated our conversation. It wasn’t a normal conversation, of course. He asked me how I’d procured the kiumba. I told him I thought that it was the ouija board. Several times he sort of spoke to the space above my left shoulder. Finally, he asked if he could ‘have’ my kiumba. He said he could pay. I told him that if he could get rid of this thing, then that was payment enough.

“But he insisted that he had to pay. He wanted to take control of this spirit, to control it’s power. As far as I was concerned he could have at it.

“Maria’s mother sat in the corner of the room, a rosary in her hands, repeating over and over what I assumed was the Hail Mary prayer. It was all, just completely -”

“Fucked up.” I interjected.

“Yes. Well, about a week later, I went to this man’s house -” she began.

“No, you did not!” I said.

“I told you I was young and stupid,” she said.

“Right, but that is next level reckless! You could have been killed, or raped, or -”

“Involved in a black magic ritual that included killing seven chickens,” she concluded.

“Don’t even tell me,” I said, turned off to the chocolate cake.

“I won’t horrify you with the details. I’ve spent my life trying to forget that night. I hadn’t prayed since I was a little girl and I prayed and prayed to be saved that night. I promised God that I would devote my life to doing good if He would get me out of there alive. He did. And I’ve kept my part of the bargain.

“I was given a jade necklace that night, by the voodoo priest. He said it was my payment and a talisman that would ward off evil. It would keep the kiumba from coming back to me, but I had to wear it always.”

“And?” I prompted

“It has worked, for the most part. But I can’t say that I don’t have scars from that night. Something’s been with me my whole life. But I’ve managed to, sort of stay a step ahead of it.”

“What do you mean?” I ask.

“Well, it’s just that sometimes, I know things. About people. You might say that my eyes were open that night. There are some that have darkness around them. It’s always standing right behind them, like mine was,” she says. Finishing her second glass of wine.

“How often does this happen?” I ask her, wanting to know if she sees anything around me.

“Often enough,” she replies.

I just stare at her, completely freaked out.

“Don’t worry,” she assures me. “There’s nothing around you. I can’t say as much for our waitress,” she nods in the direction of the bar where our server is standing close to the bartender, laughing.

“I have to warn you, though, you need to be careful with these interviews that you’re doing. Some doors can’t be shut. That was one thing the priest told me. The door that had been opened, by the ouija board. It can’t be shut. He said the talisman would protect me, but he couldn’t do anything about the choice I had made to play the game.

“I came back home determined to never make such a stupid choice again.”

“So you came back from Brazil, and what, everything was alright again?” I asked, incredulous.

“No, things weren’t quite that easy. I could tell that Zila had left, but she left behind a sort of blank space. Once in awhile, something else tried to creep into that space. Still does.”

“I’m afraid to ask,” I say.

She glances at my neck, not for the first time, and asks, “What’s that around your neck?”

“Oh,” I say, lifting my hand, “This scarf, it’s just an old thing from JCrew.”

“No, your necklace,” she says.

It takes me a minute to even know what she’s talking about and then I feel my chest. Beneath the scarf, beneath the shirt, was the St. Benedict medal that Nancy had given me. I had taken to wearing it on a chain.  “Oh!” I say again, realization dawning, “It’s a St. Benedict medal that a friend gave me.”

“That’s quite a friend,” she says. “You know, I really should get going.”

We’d already paid for our meal, the waitress had dropped off our bills to sign. But I stopped her, “Wait, you said your story was a cautionary one. Cautionary to whom?”

“Don’t you realize? To you. It knows you’re looking. Watch your back.” With that she pushed her chair back and walked out of the restaurant without another word.

I sat for a moment then pulled the little folder with our bills towards me. I wrote out the tip and signed my name to the receipt. Nosey Nelly that I am, I peeked at Casey’s bill to see if she had tipped well (I’ve got a thing about always tipping well).

She’d only tipped ten percent. Jerk. More disturbing was the fact that she’d signed her check ‘Zila Cotton.’

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The Family Home

I had two emails from people who wanted to share stories with me. One claimed that his house was haunted by its previous owner, and the other message came from a Wellesley College employee who wanted to share information about the college’s underground tunnels. Both intrigued me, but, after my past two experiences, I was hesitant.

My little library flier had generated more interest than I could have hoped for, but it seemed to be generating the wrong kind of interest. First Pam wanted to pawn off her haunted trinket and then Laura and Michael thought I could phone up an exorcist for them. I felt guilty that I had somehow unintentionally misled all of them.

My husband, we will call him C, disagreed and felt there was no need for guilt on my part. “I warned you about kooks,” he said, “You shouldn’t be meeting people in their homes,” he said,  ‘Don’t tell me their stories. I won’t be able to sleep. And make sure some demon doesn’t follow you home,” he said.

At the very least, I felt the need to tweak my flier. So I did. I made it clear that I was an author looking to gather ghost stories from Welleslians about hauntings in Wellesley. I even put a disclaimer on the bottom of the page “Please note: I am neither a ghost hunter, nor a paranormal problem-solver – just a curious neighbor who intends to document hauntings.”

I don’t know. It’s all I could come up with. I printed out a new flier and posted it at the library.

But I couldn’t bring myself to respond to the responses it elicited.

Around this time I had my friend Lyssa over so our kids could play together. She has two boys to my two girls and the four entertained each other well. Over a glass of chardonnay (it was a teeny tiny glass for me and it was four forty-three in the late afternoon, relax, everyone), I told her about my hesitation to continue my ghost research.

“You absolutely can’t stop now. You’ve had such great traction. Listen, I have a neighbor, I just met her at our neighborhood progressive dinner – we will discuss that in a moment – she’s lived in her house since she was a little girl. She and her husband and their three kids moved in with her mother. I liked her. Cute, cute haircut and she was wearing Lilly (Pulitzer). She had me at hello,” Lyssa said with a laugh.

“Speaking of, I just walked through E.A. Davis, I’m stalking the new Elsa top,” I said.

“Wait for the sale,” Lyssa replied. “Anyway, about this woman; I sat next to her at the dinner and we totally hit it off. At the dessert house – they made blueberry pie, it was strange – I ran into Leslie. You know Leslie, right? President of the Bates P.T.O., the woman that organized that diaper drive last Fall.”

“Isn’t she president of the Mother’s Forum, too?” I asked, sipping my wine.

“That’s the one,” Lyssa affirmed. “Anyway, Leslie grew up in Wellesley, and she told me that this woman I met, Jenn, had some horrible thing happen in her family when they were growing up. Like, a man broke in and attacked her and then there were rumors that other strange things happened in that house.”

“What kinds of things?” I asked.

“Spooky things. Apparently they nicknamed Jenn ‘Carrie’ in high school.”

“Like, Carrie, as in Stephen King’s Carrie?” I asked.

“Yup. Leslie said Jenn is open about it all now, she totally doesn’t mind talking about it. Anyway, it made me curious.”

“Nosey,” I corrected.

“Sure. But I thought maybe if I told her about what you’re doing, we could invite her over, or better yet, have her invite us over, and she would tell us the story.” Lyssa said, draining her glass.

“Oh, I don’t know.”

“Sure you do, I’ll arrange the whole thing.” Lyssa said with confidence, and tapped her nails on the side of her glass.

And she did. Somehow, Lyssa managed to get Jenn to invite us over to her house for cocktails and appetizers on a Thursday night in April. Enough time had passed since my last interview debacle with the Arnolds so I had the nervous / excited butterflies in my stomach at the prospect of hearing a creepy story.

I was buckling my seatbelt in the driveway when I heard a ping from my cell phone. I looked down to see a text message from Lyssa.

– F-ing babysitter cancelled just now and Joe won’t be home until nine!!!!

– Shit. I thought. Nooooooooo!!!!!! I texted.

– I know. It sucks. Go w/o me and you can fill me in.

– But I don’t even know her! I texted back.

– She’s so nice. Seriously. Go!!

– Fine. Damn it all! I texted back.

I confirmed the Boulder Brook address and texted a emoji of a middle finger to Lyssa. She texted back the poop emoji.

Ten minutes later I pulled into Jenn’s driveway. Various bikes and sports equipment littered the front lawn. I took a deep breath and got out of the car, thinking about how C had said I shouldn’t be going to people’s houses alone.

But this was an acquaintance of Lyssa, I reasoned. Totally different.

I climbed the steps onto the front porch, which held adirondack chairs and an off-kilter porch swing, and rang the doorbell.

After a moment I heard footsteps and then the beep beep beep of an alarm system being disengaged. Two deadbolts and another lock clicked and the door finally opened.

Lyssa was right, this girl was really cute with a cute haircut. Jenn had naturally curly hair cut into a funky but perfect short layered bob. It was different shades of blond and framed her heart shaped face perfectly. She was wearing black leggings and an oversized sweater. Cute.

“Hi!” She said in greeting. “I didn’t realize you were pregnant!”

I laughed, “Is it that obvious?”

“No, no! I just mean, I have plenty to drink besides wine,” she said.

“Well, frankly, a glass of wine sounds really good right now. Just a little one, then I can have water. Did Lyssa get in touch?” I asked. Jenn confirmed that she had.

I followed her past the dining room into a great room at the back of the house. It was obviously a renovated addition to the home. A wall of paned windows overlooked a gorgeously landscaped back yard. Daylight was dimming but I could still make out huge hydrangea bushes and other nice plantings, though I had no idea what they were. We chatted a bit about the gardening (don’t worry – she had a landscaper) and she got excited when I asked if it was alright for me to record our conversation.

The room was a combined kitchen and living room. The best way for me to describe the decor is if Pottery Barn and an high-end antique store had a love child and then named a Nantucket art gallery it’s Godmother. This home was that child. I never wanted to leave.

“Thank you for having me over,” I said, “I never want to leave! This room!”

“This is my favorite room in the house,” Jenn replied.

“I can see why,” I said. “Lyssa said that you’ve lived here your whole life.”

“I have, yes,” she replied. “I moved out for college in Boston, where I met my husband, Mike, and after we had our second child we moved in with mom. It was supposed to be temporary, until we could find our own place in town. But we all liked it so much, having mom with us, and the neighborhood, that we built the addition and stayed put. How long have you guys been in town?”

“Just about two years now. It was an adjustment to leave the city, but it grew on me. I like it now. Your neighborhood is so fun, Lyssa told me about the progressive dinner, and I know you all have a block party in the summer too.”

“Yeah, there’s always something going on. You have to book the sitters out way in advance. We have a fun game night too,” she said.

This triggered a memory/thought. “You don’t know Nick Sayre, do you?” I asked, thinking of the realtor with the ouija board obsession.

“I do! His wife, Maeve, is one of my best friends,” she said.

“No way! Small world. I spoke with her husband, about a ghost story recently,”

“Oh, geez, that. Yeah. The ouija board. Maeve said it had become a problem.” Jenn said.

“So you were there the night everything began happening,” I prompted.

“I was. I was really pissed, actually. Nick knows that I have an aversion to the paranormal, and he told us we were going to be playing dirty pictionary again,” There it was again, this reference to dirty pictionary.Dare I ever ask? “My husband, Maeve and I refused to play. Obviously, it wasn’t a good idea.”

“No, definitely not, but then, I can’t imagine a ouija board ever being a good idea.”

“Agreed,” she agreed. “Here, let’s go sit in the family room.”

Jenn lead the way into the gorgeous window filled room. We sat on the most elegant sectional sofa I’ve ever seen. It was lime green. Really. And it smelled nice. Not like some cloying air freshener, but just, like fresh. Clean. The throw pillows were like overstuffed clouds in navy and white. The view to the kitchen was warm and inviting.

Jenn tucked her legs underneath her as she nestled into the couch corner and I did the same at the opposite end. Above us, a massive lantern chandelier, hung from the peaked ceiling, softly lit the room around us.

“I’ll say it again,” I said, eyeing the cheese platter set before us on the glass coffee table. “I never want to leave.”

Jenn dipped a pita chip in spinach and artichoke dip. I knew that my entire body would be puffy the next morning from all of the sodium, but I followed suit.

“So, you’re the ghost lady I’ve been hearing so much about,” she said. “You don’t seem too strange. I was sort of expecting someone with butt-length stringy hair and a long patchwork skirt.”

Wine almost shot out my nose as I stifled a laugh and took a sip at the same time. I liked this woman.

“Yeah, well, sorry to disappoint. It’s just something I’ve always been drawn to. I love being scared.”

“Have you ever really been scared?” She asked, without a hint of a smile.

“No,” I said, and paused, realizing my faux pas. From the little bit I’d heard about her past, I knew that she was no stranger to fear.

“Well, that’s why you are drawn to it. You are able to romanticize it. Trust me, once you experience it. Fear – real fear – is devoid of allure and mystery. It’s the opposite of that. It is all circular thinking, and what ifs,” she paused, taking a bite of a baby carrot. “And repulsion.” She concluded.

“I’m sorry, I feel like a jerk. Lyssa told me you had a ghost story, but she also told me that you had a break in -”

“No! Don’t be sorry! I am excited that you are here – I am expecting you to interview me, so I can tell you my story. That’s why you’re here, right? That’s why you have a digital recorder!” She giggled. Something about the device seemed to amuse her. “Trust me, I am an open book.”

“I can’t tell you how much I appreciate this,” I said. “I sort of wish I was just here to chat about kids and clothes and the gossip.”

“Next time!” She said with a laugh.

“Ok, well, start it off. Where does your ghost story begin?”

“Well, actually, I need to go back a bit before I can tell you about the ghost. Because, without what happened before that, I don’t think there ever would have been a ghost.”

“Ok,” I said, stuffing a slice of Brie into my mouth. I was in that pregnancy sweet spot where flavors just burst and happiness hormones shushed the voice whispering “post pregnancy weight.” I was ready to just let her tell her story while I dug into the cheese platter.

“A man broke into our home when I was fourteen,” she began. “We were in the dining room with my mom and he came to the door. I remember watching him walk up the front steps, wondering who he was. It was late afternoon and my brother, Peter, and I were doing homework at the dining room table. I heard my mom open the door and say hello and the next thing you knew that man was dragging her into the dining room with a knife to her throat.”

“My God,” I said, glancing through the kitchen to the front door.

“Peter got up and yelled and I just sat there completely frozen. It was like I couldn’t believe what I was seeing. The guy, he was wearing this utility belt, like he was from the electric company, or something, and he had duct tape in it, and more knives. He taped Peter to his chair first, then me, and taped our mouths closed. Then he sat my mom down across the table from us, taped her up, but not her mouth. He said that he’d come to save us. That he was just in time. He stood behind my mom, with the knife to her neck and went on and on about how an angel named Delilah had been visiting him at night and that it was his destiny to save families from ‘this present darkness.’”

“What?” I said.

“He explained why he had to kill us. It was all this crazed, religious nonsense. It was surreal. A moment before we had been doing homework, and now this madman was talking about how an angel told him that if he could deliver us to her she would save us from the darkness and deliver us to the light. My mom tried to reason with him, but he would just scream into her ear, ‘Get thee behind me, Satan!’”

“Holy fuck,” I said.

“He was a lunatic He would get very quiet, almost whispering, and then shout the rest of a sentence. He was bat shit crazy.”

“What the hell were you thinking during all of this?” I asked.

“I was panic stricken about my mother, of course. But my brother was only nine. He was sobbing and I could tell through his tape that he was saying ‘mommy’ over and over.”

“Oh my God,” I say, horrified and sad and scared and angry all at once.

“It was awful. The man stopped talking after a while and was pacing behind my mother. He was quoting scripture and holding the knife in front of him with both hands like a caroller holding a candle. We could all sense that he was getting ready to kill us. Something came over me. It was like it shoved the panicked part of me into a closet in my mind and the calm took over.

“The man hadn’t closed the front curtains, I had been hoping the whole time that someone would see what was happening from the road. I could tell he was almost done psyching himself up. So I started screaming as best I could through the tape ‘me first! me first!’ over and over. He was at my side in a second. He smelled like moldy laundry and peppermint gum, “she shudders. “He ripped the tape off my mouth and whispered for me to repeat myself.

“‘Me first,’ I said again after catching my breath, ‘I want Delilah to bring me to heaven first.’ My mom, of course screamed, ‘No!’ Through her tape, but I figured that I could buy us some time if I acted like I believed him. My dad usually got home from work around five-thirty, I didn’t know what time it was but it was getting close.”

“What did he do when you volunteered to go first?”

“He dropped to his knees and started thanking every saint you’ve ever heard of. Then he said I could ‘choose.’ I didn’t know what he meant. He leaned in next to my ear and I felt his incredibly hot breath on me and he whispered, ‘choose how.’ And I knew. He wanted me to tell him how to kill me.”

“What in the fuck?” I said. What in the fuck. I thought again.

“As I was trying to decide what I should say, he walked over to my mother and slapped her across the back of her head, hard. She was getting hysterical. And my brother was just sobbing and shaking his head back and forth. I tried to calm him down, but the man screamed ‘choose!’

“So I did. ‘Drowning,’ I told him. I figured I’d have the best shot. I mean, how was he going to manage that? He said some more whacked out prayers and then cut off the rest of my duct tape with the knife and dragged me into the kitchen. I was looking everywhere for some kind of weapon, but he taped my hands behind my back and then put the stopper in the kitchen sink and began filling it with water.

“He shoved me in front of the sink and I struggled as hard as I could, but he was much stronger than me. He shoved my head under the water and I struggled and held my breath for as long as I could but eventually I couldn’t hold it anymore and I breathed in. It was like knives, like a million little needles and knives and then it was, just nothing.”

“My Lord, how did you survive?”

“While the guy was doing this, my dad came home – fifteen minutes early. He saw my mom and brother through the dining room windows. So he came in quietly and they were able to motion with their heads towards the kitchen. My dad snuck up behind the man and hit him over the head with a glass fruit bowl. Knocked him out cold. Then he got the tape off my mom so she could call 9-1-1 and gave me mouth to mouth resuscitation until the paramedics arrived.

“They all thought I was dead. Even the paramedics. My mom said that they admitted afterward that they only tried to revive me for my parent’s sake. They didn’t think there was any chance I could have survived. Said it was a miracle.”

“Thank God,” I said, needing another glass of Chardonnay, and mentally kicking myself for being pregnant.

“Honestly. I just came to and they told me that when I stopped coughing I said, ‘Delilah,’ but I don’t remember that at all.”

“Who was the man?” I asked.

“A guy that had worked in the local hardware store. My dad actually recognized him.”

“What did he look like?” I asked. “I am picturing a massive hillbilly.”

“Oh no, not at all,” she said. “He looked exactly like Michael J. Fox.”

“No,” I said, incredulous.

“Yes, to this day I can’t watch anything that he is in. The resemblance is almost unnatural.”

I looked at her for a moment, mourning the fact that she had missed watching The Frighteners. “I don’t even know what to say. I am so sorry that happened to you and your family. How do you get past something like that?”

“Everyone handled it differently. My mom had to go away for a little bit. My dad got paranoid. My brother was fearful, he slept on the floor in my room until he went away to college.”

“What about you?” I asked.

“I was able to close it in a box in my mind. My mom went for help, and my dad was worried about her and hovering around, but so panicked that he wasn’t really present. And someone had to watch over Peter, get him to school in the morning, make him dinner and talk him through his nightmares.”

“Forgive me, but that doesn’t sound like something anyone could keep up for very long. Everyone has to vent, especially terror like that.” I said.

“Yeah, well, I guess you could say that it came out another way,” she said.

“The ghost,” I guessed.

“The ghost,” she confirmed standing up and walking to the kitchen. “Can I get you anything? I’m going to grab another glass of wine, if you don’t mind. Want a seltzer water?”

“A seltzer water would be great, thanks, but I am jealous,” I replied.

“I hated giving up wine when I was pregnant,” she said over her shoulder. “But my husband was crazy about it. He was obsessed with everything that I put into my mouth. All three pregnancies. I couldn’t wait to get my body back to myself.”

“How old are your kids?” I asked.

“My oldest, Emma, is in fourth grade. Then Sophia is in second and our baby, Jackson, is in kindergarten.”

“Oh how sweet,” I said. “So they are all in the same school?”

“Yes, we are a true Bates family,” she said, referring to the neighborhood elementary school. “Where are you in town?”

Adults in this town identified with their neighborhood elementary school like sports fans bragging about a team they weren’t on.

“We are over in the Hills area. The girls will go to Schofield,” I replied.

“Oh,” she said, returning to the couch and handing me a seltzer water. “I have a few friends from the Mother’s Forum whose kids are in Schofield.”

“Oh?” I said, sipping my water.

She didn’t offer any further explanation, so I said, “You were about to tell me about your ghost.”

“My ghost,” she said, with a smile. “Do you know what a poltergeist is?”

Shit. I did know what a poltergeist was. The real kind of poltergeist, not the “they’re heeeeere,” kind of ghost. The kind of ghost that attaches to a person, an entity energized by pent up emotion, unwittingly set free to wreak havoc on a family. These ghosties were a thing of levitating beds, broken dishes, screams and voices and bumps in the night. And then, one day, out of nowhere, the terror ends. Leaving a family shaken and paranoid. Broken.

Jenn had already scared the hell out of me with her home invasion story. How much darker could this woman’s life get? I spent my own teenage years reading tales of adolescents terrorized by this phenomena. I knew that the entities were unconsciously created by a person with unreleased negative emotions. A person who contained their feelings to the extreme. Jenn’s attack and the resulting family dynamic was the perfect recipe for one of these so-called “noisy ghosts.”

I took another sip of my water before answering,“They’re sort of mischievous ghosts, right? They attach to a person and haunt them.”

“Exactly,” she confirmed. “About six months after the man broke into our house, strange things began to happen.”

“Like what?” I asked, not really wanting to know.

“At first it was all electrical. Fuses would short out, the radio would turn on by itself to a station that no one in the house listened to, lights would flicker. It was just an annoyance, but one that could be reasoned away. Then the taps started up.”

Shivers. “Taps?”

“I call them taps, but it sounded more like pennies being dropped into a coffee can. At night, right around the same time every night, it would wake all of us up. Three taps, over and over again for about twenty minutes. We searched the house, all of us, and couldn’t find the cause. [A man’s voice whispers “It was me.”]** Eventually we just learned to ignore it.” Jenn shrugged.

“And then?” I prompted.

“Then one night, after the taps had woken me up I was reading to try to ignore the noise and fall back to sleep. I must have dozed off, because I opened my eyes and the book that I had been reading was hovering over me. I reached for it, like as a reflex, I wasn’t completely awake yet, and the second I lifted my arm up the book dropped onto my stomach.”

“Uh uh,” I said, needing to use the bathroom, but unwilling to leave the room by myself.

“I didn’t tell anyone about that. I had Peter sleeping on the floor in my room and he was freaked out enough as it was. But then things began to break. Like, at breakfast, Peter and I would be at the table eating cereal and talking, and the glass pitcher of milk just cracked and fell apart. We were sitting right there. My dad, of course got mad and thought that we had done something to it, but we hadn’t [Man’s voice, “Haaaaa”].

“Other things too, I was doing homework in my room one night, at my desk which sat underneath a window. I was looking down and heard creaking and looked up to see the window pane all spidered and cracked. Eventually every mirror in the house had cracks in it. My father was so upset, thought we were acting out, especially me. He wanted things to be calm and normal for my mom. She had spent time in the hospital after the attacks ‘to rest her mind,’ and he didn’t want anything to upset her.

“But then the voice came and he started to believe me and my brother.”

“What did the voice say?” I asked, holding my breath.

“It said different things to all of us. I mean, I don’t know that it ever spoke to my mother, but it would whisper to Peter when he was alone. He couldn’t understand what it said, and he made sure he wasn’t alone if he could help it. It would yell at my dad, like if he was shaving or getting clothes out of the closet, it would yell right in his ear ‘Hey!’ [Man’s voice, “Hey!”] Once it screamed, “big man!” at him.”

“But what did it say to you?” I asked, goosebumps running up and down my body.

“A lot of the time it was just nonsense. Like, dates and names. Numbers. Then other times it would try to have a conversation with me, it would ask me questions, but I just ignored it.”

“What kinds of questions?” I asked.

“Um, I don’t know, things like ‘what do you believe now, Jennifer?’ and ‘how does it feel to drown, Jennifer?’”

“What the fuck?” I demanded. “That is just too much. How did you not lose your mind?”

“I don’t know, I really think it was because I couldn’t lose my mind. I was the only one in the house keeping things from falling apart,” she takes a sip of her wine. “It was absolute insanity, though. Everyday tasks became impossible. I would get something out of the refrigerator to eat, turn my back for a moment to grab a plate and the food would be gone. I’d find it back in the refrigerator. Glasses would crack just as you were pouring juice into them. And the tapping lasted for longer and longer each night. It got to the point where I was even hearing it in my dreams.

“I think the worst thing that it did, was in school, though,” she says, her face filled with sadness.

“It followed you to school?”  No. Way.

Jenn nods her head, then takes a big gulp of wine before continuing, “I was sitting at my desk in math class and all of a sudden this girl behind me starts screaming. I turn around and she is pointing to my hair, yelling, ‘Something lifted her hair up! What is wrong with her?’”

“What?” I said, confused. “What was she talking about?”

“She said she saw my hair just lift up off my shoulders and hover in the air. I hadn’t felt anything, but from her reaction and knowing everything that was happening at home, I believed her. And so did everyone else [Man’s voice in a growl, “Belief].” Jenn sighs.

“That is awful,” I say, picturing the scene it must have caused in her classroom.

“Yeah, that little experience earned me the nickname, ‘Carrie’ for the rest of high school. Well, actually, even today when I run into old classmates in town, I see them catch themselves before they say, ‘hi, Carrie.” She gives a little laugh.

“Awful,” I say again.

“It was, I mean there were already enough stories going around about me and my family after the break in. Now I was cast as a complete freak show. Luckily, there were two girls that I had grown up with, Maeve is one of them, who stood by me. I wouldn’t have made it without them.”

“How long did all of this go on for?” I asked, meaning the haunting.

“Only about, I don’t know, a little over a month,” she said, draining her glass.

“I woke up one night and there was something above me on the ceiling. It was huge and black and its body, if you can call it that, sort of moved constantly, like it was thick liquid. The voice started up, saying, ‘I’m here, you’re here, we’re both here, Jennifer. We are here together, Jennifer.”

“Hell no,” I said.

“I screamed at it, told it to go away, that’s I’d had enough, that it was ruining my life. I squeezed my eyes shut and screamed ‘You’re not real. You’ve never been real’. Of course, Peter just hid beneath his blankets, but my dad woke up from my screaming and ran into the room. When I opened my eyes, it was gone.

“The next morning, everything had stopped. We were on pins and needles waiting for it to come back, but it didn’t,” she said.

“Holy hell,” I said, shaking my head. “And that was it? Nothing else?” I asked.

“Yeah, that was it, but you know, actually, every once in awhile I – [Man’s voice, “Shhhh, here.”]” she was cut off by the sound of locks clicking, the front door opening and the shrill beeping of the alarm.

We both froze.

“Jennifer!” A woman’s voice called out, then we heard more beeping as the alarm was disengaged.

Jenn and I looked at each other and laughed in relief, “In here, mom!” Jenn called to the woman.

A small woman walked into the kitchen and placed a large bag on the counter (I was pretty sure that it was Chanel). I stood up to introduce myself and, just like her daughter she greeted me with, “You’re pregnant!”

We all took a minute to laugh at that and I agreed that I was indeed pregnant and Jenn introduced me.

“Liz, this is my mom, Nancy. Mom, this is Liz,” Jenn said.

“When are you due?” Nancy asked and turned her back to us to began rifling through a kitchen drawer.

“In August,” I replied.

“Ah, here’s one,” she said, grabbing something out of the drawer. “Here you go, keep this in your pocket, or, better yet, put it on a chain around your neck.”

She pressed something small into my palm. I looked down and saw a St. Benedict medal. “Are you Catholic?” She asked.

“Mom!” Said Jenn.

“I was raised Catholic, now I’m just a Christian,” I replied.

“Oh, you’ll come back to us. Life will bring you back,” she said with a knowing smile.

“Mom!” Jenn said again.

I said, “This is so sweet, thank you. Are you sure you want to give this to me?”

“Of course, I have more,” Nancy replied and plopped down in an arm chair.

“She buys them in bulk and has our priest bless them,” Jenn said with a little eye roll.

“It’s our best protection,” her mom said pointedly, then, “Now, what were you girls gossiping about?”

“Liz is collecting ghost stories,” Jenn says, with what I notice is a little gleam in her eye.

“Ghost stories?” Nancy asks, well, sort of demands.

“She was interested in our experience. She’s a writer,” Jenn replies, munching on a cracker.

Nancy said. “You really shouldn’t go looking for the darkness, dear. It’s best to leave it be, nothing good ever comes from talking about it.”

“Not talking about it is what lead to the problem,” Jenn says with forced cheer.

Nancy opens her mouth to reply and the light flickers above us. No, it doesn’t just flicker, it’s like the light grows brighter for a moment and then dims down and comes back to normal.

All three of us stare at the light fixture for a moment.

I want to get the hell out of there. [At this point on my digital recorder, there is electrical interference. A fuzzy white noise comes through as we are all silent].

Nancy is the first to speak. “It’s getting awfully late for a school night, where are the kids?”

Jenn takes a moment to answer her mother, “Mike brought them to The Local for dinner, I’m sure they stopped for ice cream afterwards.”

I grab my recorder off the table and say, “You know, speaking of kids, my oldest has taken to waking up at four in the morning, so I should probably call it a night.”

We all stand up and head to the door, Jenn tells me how nice it was to meet me and chat and I thank her for sharing her story and say we should grab dinner with Lyssa soon. Nancy trails behind us, her arms crossed over her chest.

Jenn disengages the alarm and unlocks the deadbolts and I cross the threshold.

Once on the porch, I turn back and thank Nancy for the St. Benedict medal. I realized that I had been clutching it in my hand.

“Wear it around your neck, dear,” she says.

I agree to and look toward Jenn to say goodbye. The look on her face stops me, just for a moment she looks almost disgusted. Angry. No, rageful. Then, it is gone and she is smiling at me.

I walk toward my car and hear the locks clicking away behind me. The beep beep beep of the alarm promising safety.

I started my car, hoping that I could make it home without wetting my pants, and wondering whether Jenn’s security system was meant to keep others out, or to hold something in.

** Text found in [brackets] was not audible by the author during the interview. It was heard upon playback and audio transcription.